-- Posted by Anonymous at 4:34 am on Sep. 8, 2008 People started to notice that i was deperssed in yaer 9, but i thought it was just because i was sad because i couldn't be with the girl i wanted to be with.. I got to go out with her at the end of yaer 9, and we spent 2 years together. (we broke up at the end of yaer 11) Long story short, we were on and off after this because she cheated on me, adn every time we wanted to start fresh i still resented her.. Then we were on again for good.. or so i thought.. She dumped me so she could pick up other guys at parties (summerised).. This was 9months ago.. I feel shit house constantly, most of my weekends (if im not playing a gig) getting absolutly smashed off my face to try and feel better about everything.. When i get drunk, i say things to people that fucks things up with the friendships i have.. Im usually thinking about death. And my jokes are considered very 'left-wing' to the point that they're considered really socally un acceptable.. I contemplate suicide, but the only thing stopping me is my family and friends, and sometimes i just with that i would haev an accadent so that i end up in hospital.. Before you people start saying things like "oh, get over if yuo sook, its just abreak up" Yeah, its a break up.. But it happened in year 9 i was depressed.. I dont know how to tell my parents that im thinking this way and to get help.. Because i know that if i tell them, mum and dad will feel shit because they will think they did a crap job of raising me.. Im sure there's other people on LW that have had 'depression' and wanted help but wasn't sure hwo to go about it.. So if you have any sugestions on how i can tell them or ho i can get help without them worrying.. That'd be great. -- Posted by Permious at 4:41 am on Sep. 8, 2008 stop drinking until you become normal and can handle it start eating properly, exercising and getting involved in sports/voluntary work/whatever watch socially competent people interact and mimic them -- Posted by Scarlet Tears at 4:59 am on Sep. 8, 2008 Awwe Hears what I think you should do: -Even though it'll be hard stop (or at least cut down) your drinking, Its a depressant and it'll just screw you over more -If you cant talk to parents talk to a friend or befriend a random person on here get their email and fully spill out all your problems- This makes you feel so much better trust me! -I think there is a helpline for depression, try a google search for it. -Make your self part of groups and socialize more, do something you really enjoy and can feel proud of in your life. -Exercise and eat healthy - You just feel healthier and happier this way and plus you'll look great too. And last but not least Dont give up! Good luck!!!