-- Posted by mandy4889 at 10:20 pm on Sep. 11, 2008 all my life I've been verbally & physically abused, also I've been raped & sexually assaulted, i can't move out cause I'm a student & therefore have minimal money & don't have time for a job, but my dad is just getting too much & i opened up to some friends on another forum & they turned around & started yelling, saying their sick of me, there's no one i can really talk to, my only friend is on the other side of the country, i don't know what to do, or who to turn to, please help -- Posted by Define Your Line at 6:39 am on Sep. 17, 2008 Hey there, First off, I just want to say that I am very proud of you for seeking help about this.  It's not easy to seek help about this kind of thing and it really does take a lot of courage and strength to do so.  You should feel really proud of yourself.  I am sorry that you are experiencing this and I really will try my best to help you in any way that I can.  Remember that you're never alone.  There are always people, including myself, who really care about you and are willing to help you in any way that they can. This is so much for you to deal with.  I mean, it really does seem that you have a lot on your plate right now.  No one should have to go through what you've gone through and I'm really sorry that you had to experience all of this hardship.  It's really unfortunate when you hear about all of the negative things that go on in this world.  It makes me really sad. As a student, I do understand your concerns when thinking about moving out of the house.  There are many things to take into consideration when deciding on whether you should move out of the house or not.  Money is probably the biggest concerns in regards to this issue.  I do understand how you feel and I'm sorry that you do not have the adequate funding in order to move out and be a happier person. I don't know why your friends on the other forum started yelling at you.  I am really sorry that this happened to you.  I could only imagine the hurt that you felt when this happened.  Do you think they actually meant it?  I mean, people have bad days and therefore, can act in a way which is abnormal to their usual behaviour.  Have you tried talking to them after that?   If I were you, I'd try to talk this out with your friends.  Communication is very important when dealing with relationships.  Maybe they have a lot going on in their lives as well and therefore, lashed out on you but didn't mean to do it.  There are many possibilities as to why they acted the way they did.  Try your best to see the benefit of the doubt. Have you tried talking to anyone about this?  I can see that talking to your parents about this situation is out of the question.  I can also see that you have tried talking to your friends from another forum about it but was unsuccessful.  Do you have any friends that you can personally go and visit or talk to on the phone?  If you do, it would be very beneficial to talk to them about the way you're feeling. If you don't feel comfortable talking to any of the people I've mentioned above, you can always go to a guidance counselor about this.  Actually, I personally think going to a guidance counselor about this is the best way to deal with the situation.  Guidance counselors specialise in situations like your own and therefore can provide you with quality, professional advice that could help you a lot.  Whatever you decide to do, you need to tell someone about what's going on. I can see that life isn't going your way right now and I am sorry that is the case.  Life isn't fair.  Life will throw you curve balls and life will knock you down.  What makes a strong person is not how hard they hit, but how hard they can get hit and keep going.  Even if you feel that you've hit rock bottom, know that there's no where to go from there but up.  There's no where left to fall when you've reached the bottom.  As difficult as it may be to do, you really need to try your best to stay as positive as you can and know that things will get better for you. I hope I helped.  If you ever need anything at all or feel the need to discuss this further, feel free to message me any time as my inbox is always open.  I am always happy to help who ever is in need. Good luck and I really do hope everything gets better for you. DYL