-- Posted by Dexus at 11:50 am on Sep. 17, 2008 I do NOT feel good lately, I'm having more regular panic attacks, my moods are erratic and unpredictable. I randomly have the urge to burst into tears for no apparent reason and then start thinking about things that I know will make me worse and fight the strong urge to just hide somewhere and cry for a few mins, I feel sudden bursts of anger and want to punch things or become very impatient, I've even started arguing with my co-workers over things that I normally wouldn't. I fucking hate my job more than usual and have came close to telling my boss to shove his job up his ass and I can't do that as he's my brother in law and I need this job. I feel reclusive, not talking to anyone, lying to people and the one thing I loved to do I now despise more than anything in the world. I'm severely drained all day to the point were I'm virtually asleep on my feet and I hurt all over as if I'd been run over by something despite the large amount of rest I've had I have no energy at all. I feel as if I'm on the verge of a complete breakdown, it feels like 2 million things are going through my head at the one point and I just wish it would stop and my only way of controlling it has been via small amounts of alcohol to perk my mood up before I fall asleep of exhaustion. So to quote KoRn lyrics as I feel I can relate to this song a lot right now... "I'm trying to hold it together Head is lighter than a feather Looks like I'm not getting better" I need help, what kind of help I don't know but I need something. I can't stand feeling like I'm on the verge of loosing my mind. Sorry about the long topic... -- Posted by Cloud Nine at 11:51 am on Sep. 17, 2008 How much sleep are you getting? -- Posted by Dexus at 11:53 am on Sep. 17, 2008 Quote: from Cloud Nine at 7:51 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 How much sleep are you getting? Normally about 7 hours, lately because I've been feeling so drained I bumped it up to 8-9 hours. I don't even wake at night and feel as equally terrible when I wake up. -- Posted by Cloud Nine at 12:00 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 Quote: from Dexus at 11:53 am on Sep. 17, 2008 Quote: from Cloud Nine at 7:51 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 How much sleep are you getting? Normally about 7 hours, lately because I've been feeling so drained I bumped it up to 8-9 hours. I don't even wake at night and feel as equally terrible when I wake up. That sucks.  Whenever I feel upset like that its because I don't get enough sleep, then it goes away on the weekend. What is that one thing that you loved to do?  Maybe you can try out some new things.  I'd be going crazy if I didn't dance. -- Posted by Dexus at 12:10 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 Quote: from Cloud Nine at 8:00 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 That sucks. Whenever I feel upset like that its because I don't get enough sleep, then it goes away on the weekend. What is that one thing that you loved to do? Maybe you can try out some new things. I'd be going crazy if I didn't dance. I do not and will not dance! Ever. lol It was just a little something, nothing important.. Anyway trying something new, I'm not good at that, however I would like to expand on things I like to do but I'm finding it hard too, I'm just too busy...