-- Posted by rapsody at 5:00 pm on Sep. 17, 2008 Well, I've been jealous about lots of things. I want something that I probably NEVER have and I can't move on with it. Sometimes, I want to beat myself up about it. I just started college, and I told everyone how much I'm not going to get jealous over girls because of how much money I'd be making from work and Financial Aid refund checks. Usually, when I'm jealous I'm demonically pissed off as though I want to kill someone. I try listening to something hard like Slipknot, Slayer, Mudvayne, and even Marilyn Manson couldn't help me. So, when I got home, I went to the bathroom and cried and realized that for the first time in years, I'm sad because I'm jealous. It's like I had a sudden change since high school graduation. I can't get over it, and I feel as though I won't be the cheerful and hardcore person I used to be. Now I'm scared because I think I might change into a different person. -- Posted by tell me again at 8:38 pm on Sep. 18, 2008 Why are you jealous? Do you feel that your worth is determined by certain things that you can't attain, but other people have? It's alright to be jealous but what you're describing sounds really extreme, and as if there's more to it. So maybe you can figure that out first and see what happens from there. See whether what you want is really that necessary, and why other people have it (presumably). And then look at alternatives if you really can't attain it.