-- Posted by Anonymous at 6:05 pm on Sep. 27, 2008
Sorry to rant, but this is pretty much my last resort. Lately, I feel so disconnected from everyone and everything. It actually pretty weird too because I am involved in more things than I was last year. I ve pretty much drifted from everyone I used to be close to, and no matter how hard I try I cant get close to them again. And then on the other hand, I have to get close to new people and no matter what I do, I cant seem to do that either. Its pretty much like I end up bouncing between people but I dont really belong anywhere. It makes me nervous, and when I am nervous I talk way too much and I am super loud, so I end up looking annoying & immature & thats not even who I am. I always tell myself i am gonna be calm and quiet, but it never works. I just hate it because, it pushes people away and they don't seem interested in really getting to know me. But, at this point I feel like no one wants me and I am useless and a waste of space.
I really need help, like something I can do that can keep me calm and quiet or something, because I dont know anymore and part of me would just rather live life high and numb everyday and another part of me fears it. I am afraid of what I am becoming and I have no one to save me from it......
PLEASE HELP, REALLY DESPERATE!!!!!!!!!!!
-- Posted by duesxmachina at 6:08 pm on Sep. 27, 2008
that sounds like me, like really really like me! thing is, im still working on it. so your on your own.
-- Posted by iguana hunter1 at 6:08 pm on Sep. 27, 2008
do you get like people just come up to you and try and talk and you talk back but for some reason they just lose interest in you. if its like that then i get it every day