-- Posted by mnight at 9:44 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 I feel like I'm falling deeper and deeper each day.  I stay up too late half-assing my homework, and take naps during the day. I've been shut in my room for most of the evening, and it feels good.  Comfortable. I want to drink.  I had about 4 beers last night with my brother just for the hell of it.  I wanted to have some more tonight, but I stopped myself... feels a little too alcoholic. I eat a lot at night, and I haven't worked out in weeks. I'm on an academic scholarship, but I'm digging myself a hole.  I have a C in physics and probably a C in my history class too.  The satan doll on my shoulder is telling me that life would be easier if I just gave up and went home. Is this what depression feels like? ...and how the fuck do I pull myself up? -- Posted by LaWhoren at 9:45 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 yes thats how it feels and there is no hope trust me im there -- Posted by senorita smirnoff at 9:46 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 get organised, spend some time to get ontop of ur school work, and ull feel better -- Posted by shutter bugs at 9:46 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 sounds like it, or the start ect maybe see if you can see a coucellour, talk to your rother or someone else you trust about your problems, just think about good stuff, what you are good at each day try to get ontop of your school work, once you suceed in something you will star to feel a bit better, try not to withdraw yourself from anyone you can trust to talk to. -- Posted by Wolfmanjack at 9:46 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 Try new things. I've found that exercise is a great pick me up. I hope you feel better. -- Posted by silverbullets at 9:46 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 im there too. but i know theres hope somewhere at some point in time. just not now -- Posted by haysues at 9:48 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 Quote: from LaWhoren at 9:45 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 yes thats how it feels and there is no hope trust me im there me too. "/ -- Posted by Doghouse at 9:49 pm on Sep. 29, 2008 go get laid, dude. duh. -- Posted by Jamie1989 at 5:05 am on Sep. 30, 2008 yep sure is, and it sucks... i dont think we will ever get out of it no matter what happens. -- Posted by Micus at 5:22 am on Sep. 30, 2008 First off, cut the drinking. Alcohol has detrimental effects on the body, both physical and mental. It's been proven that you're more likely to feel depressed after a night of drinking. While it may seem like fun it's probably only going to make you feel worse down the line. In a similar vein... start excersizing! Exerting yourself releases endorphins, which make you feel BETTER! Drink lots of water and keep your blood sugar up... that way you won't feel washed out or fatigued. Everything we do has an effect on our bodys chemistry, it effects the way we feel. The scholarship, if anything should be your motivation to push even harder and get back to the right track. Don't worry! It's not even midterms yet. There's still plenty of time to get the work done.