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-- Posted by Anonymous at 7:56 pm on Oct. 2, 2008

^ That's exactly how I feel right now.

I am in my first year of college and I have a shit ton of homework. I am looking for a job at the moment but have had no luck as of yet, Having a job is just going to increase this stress but still, I need the money. I'm trying to learn C++ (a programming language) on the side of my college work yet I never have enough time to read the various books I bought and usually can find some source code made by some stupid 13 year old kid that's better than anything I can code.

And my girlfriend requires so much of my time, when ever my sister is over she has a problem with it because her brother did some terrible things to her and she feels uncomfortable when my sister is near me. It's a hard thing for me to understand since I generally have a hard time connecting with people on an emotional level, which, also makes her upset. Every girl, ever, is out to steal me from her as well, and since I went swimming with some other girl waaaaay before I knew her, we can't go swimming anymore because it will remind her of it. And she gets upset with me because I never message her on myspace anymore.. although she lives with me.

I used to be the most mellow person you would ever meet, I have no idea why but now I feel like any little annoyance is going to cause me to have a mental breakdown. I can't get any god damned time alone anymore.

I fail at life :(

PS
God I hope my g/f doesn't see this.


-- Posted by scotttyyyboyyy at 7:58 pm on Oct. 2, 2008

And your question is?


-- Posted by cobresx3 at 8:03 pm on Oct. 2, 2008

are you kidding about your girlfriend? she needs to stop being a psycho and maybe you wouldn't be so stressed out. no offense :) but girls like that aren't even worth the effort.
as for school, college is a hard adjustment, so give it some more time and i'm sure it'll get easier. and maybe hold off on the c++ for now, especially if it isn't required for school.


-- Posted by BranMan at 7:16 pm on Oct. 3, 2008

Well maybe you should put one of your activities off, like your C++. A job would be more important at the time. You could try doing your homework at different times of the day when you don't have class. It's good that you want to help your sister, but I think you should try telling her that she needs to find somebody else to help her with her problems because you have problems that you need working with also. Also, I think you should talk to your girlfriend about whats going on. Tell her that she shouldn't think anything of you swimming with another girl because you are with her and you love her. You also need to tell her that Myspace is just a website and that she doesn't need to get upset that you don't message her on Myspace. She should understand that you can talk to her in person since you live with her. Tell her that you are getting stressed out because you have no time to yourself and you want to just relax and get away from things. Since you're so stressed she would most likely understand what you are going through. Since she lives with you she should see how much homework you have. If you need any other help just message me any time you'd like and I'll get back to you and soon as I get the message!


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