-- Posted by Poker Shark at 5:21 am on Oct. 3, 2008 i feel like absolute shit right now. i don't really know why. i've been getting more and more down lately. when it hits me i feel so alone, i can't stand it. i fucking hate the loneliness. what's the point being off drugs if i feel like this. so alone all the time. like there's an invisible wall in between me and the world. stuck in a bubble. nobody can tell me it's withdrawal anymore, it's not. it's been over 6 months. i'm well recovered from that. i feel how i did right before i started using. it took it all away. why does it hurt so bad? i came to this site feeling like this and that was over two years ago now. that's long fucking term. i hate this so much. i don't want to be alone. -- Posted by gratiaDei777 at 5:23 am on Oct. 3, 2008 Really well done for getting off drugs. -- Posted by babel at 5:27 am on Oct. 3, 2008 just stay off the drugs mate thats the main thing! -- Posted by Poker Shark at 5:30 am on Oct. 3, 2008 This thread isn't about drugs. -- Posted by berrycuda at 5:42 am on Oct. 3, 2008 This will pass and as long as you stay clean your thinking and feelings should change it's inevitable. -- Posted by Poker Shark at 5:50 am on Oct. 3, 2008 Quote: from berrycuda at 10:12 pm on Oct. 3, 2008 This will pass and as long as you stay clean your thinking and feelings should change it's inevitable. It was like this before I ever took drugs. The drug problem was self-medicating/escaping the emotional problems. Even my doctor said, the real problem is not the drug addiction because the drug addiction stems from the depression so that is what is important to overcome. -- Posted by BranMan at 7:28 pm on Oct. 3, 2008 It's good that you've been clean for six months now. Hopefully you will stay that way. Returning to drugs could just make your problems worse right now. I'm sure you have people to talk to about this problem that you have. Also, you shouldn't feel like you're alone. I'm sure you have friends that are there for you when you need them. You could get through all of this without drugs. They won't help you at all. Honestly, I kind of think that this problem could be caused by a withdrawal. My friend had the same exact problem. He was clean for a year and started feeling like this. He went to a psychiatrist and found out that his problem was caused by withdrawal. It takes longer than six months to fully recover from a drug addiction. You could go to a counseling group and talk about your problems and they will help you in there. If you need anymore help don't be afraid to message me. I will help you as much as possible!