-- Posted by Anonymous at 6:58 pm on Oct. 7, 2008 If I pretend, will this all disappear? I want to re-grasp denial. Is that possible? I want to pretend that I never cut, I never starved myself, I never tried to kill myself, that none of this ever happened. I don't really have any ambition to start anew but rather to just take a magic eraser and dispose of the past. Just erase my existence. But obviously, only to me. Is that possible? I am sick of "working" with everybody—seeing as "everybody" is literally participating in the "healing" of my psychiatric disorder—and I want out, even if only to pretend. -- Posted by bosss at 6:58 pm on Oct. 7, 2008 nooope. not possible.