-- Posted by Kaijuu at 7:33 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 I'm tired of being sexually asssaulted all the time by almost every boyfriend  i have ever had and used and urgh i only stopped cutting myself somermonths ago, now to not leave scars i staple myself i dont want scars because im hoping maybe ill find someone who wont do this to me i got anally raped by a bf and then today i found someone just like that guy and im so alone that i walked aroun with him and he tried to have sex with me and i ran and hit my face on a fucking dorr teying to get out i feel so sick and i just want to stab a hole in my arm this shit always happens to me sometimes i eel like the only reason im here is to make guys like them happy so they have something to fuck around with when they are bored the only thing that keeps me from killing myself is the fact that i wanna have a kid some day do what i was born to do i guess if there is any help you can give me that would be nice otherwise i guess im just venting, God I hate myself -- Posted by LaWhoren at 7:34 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 dont hate yourself hate people!!!! arghhhh!! -- Posted by musicfan3 at 7:35 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Tell someone that they're hurting you. -- Posted by Innuendo Girl at 7:36 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Why don't you take some time off from dating? Just concentrate on yourself and keeping healthy and mentally fit. Maybe figure out what it is that makes you choose these types of guys and learn how to change the habit. -- Posted by Anonymous at 7:36 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 try to get to know them better before you start a relationship, find out what type of guy he is -- Posted by Kaijuu at 7:39 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Innuendo Girl at 7:36 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Why don't you take some time off from dating? Just concentrate on yourself and keeping healthy and mentally fit. Maybe figure out what it is that makes you choose these types of guys and learn how to change the habit. im seriopusly tired of being alone, i was alone for 3 months before this -- Posted by Yahtzee at 7:39 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Wow im sorry to hear that. Look don't cut yourself or staple yourself. It doesn't help what so ever. You should tell someone about the people who have raped you. And find some support for yourself. And also the only reason why you are here is not to just have a kid. There are other reasons for you to live. be it that you have not discovered them yet. Also don't look on yourself as though your are just a guys pleasure tool. You shouldn't look at this  like you are. if you really need some support you'll find it here or from someone you can actually trust. PM me if you need someplace to vent. -- Posted by Innuendo Girl at 7:42 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Zyaar at 9:39 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Innuendo Girl at 7:36 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Why don't you take some time off from dating? Just concentrate on yourself and keeping healthy and mentally fit. Maybe figure out what it is that makes you choose these types of guys and learn how to change the habit.   im seriopusly tired of being alone, i was alone for 3 months   before this three months isn't really that long. wouldn't you rather be alone than with someone who only hurts you? i really think being alone for a while and doing something else (picking up some kind of hobby or something) to fill that relationship void would be beneficial for you. spend more time with close friends or family... people who genuinely care about you -- Posted by Kaijuu at 7:47 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Innuendo Girl at 7:42 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Zyaar at 9:39 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Quote: from Innuendo Girl at 7:36 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Why don't you take some time off from dating? Just concentrate on yourself and keeping healthy and mentally fit. Maybe figure out what it is that makes you choose these types of guys and learn how to change the habit. im seriopusly tired of being alone, i was alone for 3 months before this three months isn't really that long. wouldn't you rather be alone than with someone who only hurts you? i really think being alone for a while and doing something else (picking up some kind of hobby or something) to fill that relationship void would be beneficial for you. spend more time with close friends or family... people who genuinely care about you idk...being alone just makes me think of why i hate myself so much 3 months was like hell for me i mean if i cant have someone to be my bf i need someone to at least makeout with em i just NEED it i dont know why which is why i ha eto be alone i have noone to hold me and i feel like i need it i dont understand how people can be alone -- Posted by ComplicatedMind at 7:52 pm on Oct. 11, 2008 Hey, is not being alone that bad? To the point where you'd go out with predators? C'mon, get a reality check. You have plenty of years to meet guys, and I'd recommend that you get to know them pretty good before you actually start a relationship, this can save you loads. Personally, I like being alone, from a guy's perspective, I can flirt with all of the ladies I want (hehe, which I do a lot...), dance with all of the ladies I want, I get to hangout with a crowd of people whom I feel comfortable with. What I'm trying to get at, is that don't just look for relationships, look for the good in every situation, don't feel left out, don't feel like your alone, don't feel like your not worthy of someone's complete attention. Also, please stop hurting yourself. Guys, like girls, like when the ladies that LIKE THEMSELVES. Confidence. Actually, that's almost one of the things I look first for. Because a girl that feels good about herself, also is usually respective of others and is nice to be around. Hope this helps, I added you as friend, if you need to vent some more or talk, message me.