-- Posted by evann92 at 9:32 pm on Oct. 13, 2008 The petrified little girl inside me is now making her way back into reality. The deep dark shadow that lingers behind me, my greated fear has now entered. The discusting scent of pot reaks up the nights cold clear air. His footsteps begin to speed up, I turn to notice no ones there;am I insane? I keep walking home in the pitch black, tapping to the beat of my booming loud music. The footsteps seem to re-appear, shocked, I dont know what to do, so I run. There is only one thing stopping me, the monster inside him. The monster has now arrived , there's no getting out of this now. It's always the exact wording "Hey sis, come with me , lets play cards". But . for some reason I can not say no to him. The horrifying eye's that fill with anger when he does not get what he wants, starts to come to life. I try to pull away, only making a better chance for him to grab me to the ground. His massive tanned body drapes over me, like i'm a babbie doll with no emotions. His breath, soft yet hard, cold yet sensitive, caring yet furious; leaves me with chills running through my spine, only making me wonder why? He leaves me with emptiness, no soul, and a heart that has yet to heal. The next thing I know , I wake up alone on the ground , with sadness, and a scence of betryal, and 100% recongintion of what he has been doing for the past two years. The brother that was once sweet and inncocent has now become a pot smokking , jobless, mosnter. All the power he has over me needs to come to a stop, or else I may lose my insanity. He has taken away my childhood,my indentidy, my passion, and the ability to trust a guy. It seems as though he pops in and out of my life at akward times , messes things up, then vanishes like a ghost. Every wonder, every question, I have ever had towards him will never be answered fully. The monster that will never go away, will always be a brother to me. No matter how hard i try , the monster , the brother will always be with me. -- Posted by isabelle demetri at 9:36 pm on Oct. 13, 2008 very impressive. i like the way you think. -- Posted by evann92 at 9:40 pm on Oct. 13, 2008 thanks really? -- Posted by EliEe at 5:30 am on Oct. 14, 2008 I really liked it and if what it describes is true, I'm sorry... -- Posted by evann92 at 5:44 pm on Oct. 14, 2008 thankss!