-- Posted by Watch this at 4:21 pm on Oct. 14, 2008 I know I always complain about not feeling well but... I can't stand it anymore! I keep on focusing on my past. I've realized that I won't make any progress if I don't start doing something about my life now. I liked my high school days better (I graduated, no drop out here)...I came back from school some days and I at least had a random girl from school smile at me but now what? I'm just stuck in my house... the only thing I have is music and well I would like some NEW people to talk to besides my parents. I have 2 bros but one moved out of the house because he got married, not too far away but I've never spontaneously gone to his house and I wouldn't feel too comfortable doing so. My other bro is severely autistic, I can't have a conversation with him because well he doesn't exactly speak a language.. he doesn't say real words... eh it's kinda hard to explain! I just also wish I was in a true relationship.. I've never even been in a long relationship.. but it's not my fault, it's because my past girlfriends broke up with me for another guy. I want to have someone to care about again, someone who I think about a lot, someone who is sweet to me. I also find myself wanting a radical change in myself and my life... I'm not a bad guy, I promise.. I don't know why I have such a stressing life. I have dreams and well I want to start getting known for the songs I sing in two years.. not now because I haven't even signed up for college yet. I should have thought of that before my 2nd semester as a Senior in HS. I would love any help you could give me, I'm sad about my life! sad about the past but not hopeless.. at least not too hopeless HELP! -- Posted by Periwinkle at 4:07 am on Oct. 18, 2008 Heya! Well, kudos to you for realising that you need a change, because if you hadn't said that, then I'd be typing out a reply now telling you that. What happened to your friends from high school? How long ago did you finish? Unless you're an entirely repulsive individual (which I seriously doubt!), people won't turn down social engagements just for the sake of it. Ring 'em up, even if they're people you don't know too well, and suggest something - pizza, bowling...whatever. You said you want a radical change...if you could achieve anything at all, what would it be? Now's the time to start working towards it. Set yourself a goal and take steps to achieve it: you'll only make things better for yourself. -- Posted by Watch this at 9:07 am on Oct. 18, 2008 My friends of high school well they.. really never talked to me as much as everyone else. but now they completely lost communication with me. I don't know why they still keep on messaging all their other friends but when I message them, they don't EVER reply. I graduated in June 2008. The change that I would like to see is that I feel good, because I know I can, I have before. I would like to succeed for everyone who is close to me. I think I could help them with my success in a way.