-- Posted by irrationalthought at 6:09 pm on Oct. 14, 2008 For awhile, I was quite happy. I've stopped cutting myself, started opening up to people, eased up on the meds... everything seemed so great. Now, it's as if I've stripped away the last year of horrors, and so I am now right back where I started. It wouldn't surprise me if cuts start to mysteriously appear on my shoulders and legs. I don't know anymore. Perhaps my life would be better if I just caved in on myself again. Getting comfort from seeing the inside of my body pour out. Or, god, just a noose. Is there even a such thing as "forward"? I doubt myself to be the stronger person to push through... how can I encourage myself? (I'd prefer not to have anyone involved this time around.) -- Posted by asia lover at 6:12 pm on Oct. 14, 2008 DUDEEE I know EXACTLY how you feel. You feel like you are over it then BAM it comes back. Same thing happened to me. Even the med part. Oh and I am a cutter too... that should of been obvious heh.