-- Posted by decay at 11:43 pm on Oct. 16, 2008 im sitting here in my garage listening to some music and thinking about today. i gave up the perfect opportunity to get a girls number on the last day of class, all because i have this fear. i dont know where it comes from.I am attractive, confident, and i can talk to girls perfectly fine up until i figure out that i like them or they like me. its at this point that my mind flips a switch and I become nervous, have panic attacks, and will make up any stupid reason not to continue any type of relationship from there. if i do decide to, i am constantly nervous around them and cannot function normally, ESPECIALLY when it comes to eating something. i will feel like puking, and make the scene awkward, and i believe this is where a lot of the initial anxiety comes from because i know that if a relationship does start, we are bound to have to eat together at some point. I have had this feeling ever since i began high school. i have had a handful of girlfriends during this time, i dont know how, but they never seemed t last.. More recently i believe i have been feeling like this even More is because i was recently diagnosed with HPV. since then i have hated myself, been depressed, and fearful of starting anything up with a girl because there is a Huge chance of rejection now.... -- Posted by iamgodzilla at 11:45 pm on Oct. 16, 2008 go for it anyway. -- Posted by iceman89 at 11:48 pm on Oct. 16, 2008 dotn worry, I was like that, but things change when you take sthing less serious then, just relax and you will fingure out later -- Posted by decay at 11:55 pm on Oct. 16, 2008 but how to I start to make things change right now? I cant wait any longer, this is killing me... -- Posted by Solitare142 at 12:16 am on Oct. 17, 2008 The only way to change is to start getting out there and trying to "get over it" meaning, try your  best to over come it. Honestly, if a girl's not going to take the time to try, she's not going to be worth it. PM me if you want, I should be online for a bit.