-- Posted by Anonymous at 7:45 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 But i guess i was wrong, its tha same as everthing ever was, hopeless. I feel so alone that im having both homocidal and suicidal thoughts, it just not fair how it seems everone around me is loving life, while i disgust it -- Posted by jennay at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 you can be happy if you want to be happy -- Posted by Dont Notice Me at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 message me -- Posted by Anonymous at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Quote: from jennay at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 you can be happy if you want to be happy how, ive been tryin, jus 2 be back where i started -- Posted by UndergroundKing at 7:47 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Yeah I feel you.... Thats pretty much the same story for me.   -- Posted by Mr Speed at 7:47 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Quote: from dont notice me at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 message me i'm available as well... -- Posted by prettyinpurple at 7:48 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 try doing things differently, change your routine of activites and focus on you then. spend some quality me time, take a bubble bath&talk to someone about it.maybe you should take less credit hours & if you're working quit it. -- Posted by jennay at 7:49 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Quote: from jennay at 7:46 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 you can be happy if you want to be happy how, ive been tryin, jus 2 be back where i started you need to make it more of a priority and stop being so negative about everything -- Posted by Doghouse at 7:49 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 I'm in college and I can relate. I have no stable friends at the moment and I'm on my third semester. Message me if you need an ear and a friend. -- Posted by xxkatelynn at 7:53 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 stay positive buddy :) -- Posted by Al Legator at 7:54 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 I'm guessing you have been in college for about 2 months? And that you expected things to just change because it was a new place, new start. I work at a University and I can promise you there are others who are having the same feelings as you are but it's not good for you (and that's what you need right?) to keep it bottled up and have unrealistic expectations. THere are surely counselors where you go to college and they HAVE dealt with these feelings from other students. ANything you say is confidential with the exception that if you make any threats to other people or yourself that could make a counsellor reasonably think you were going to carry it out, they may be required to call the police. For example: "Sometimes I feel like killing myself and I get so angry I could kill someone", would be confidential (and probably common, at that). But :"I'm so depressed I've decided I'll kill myself if I don't get a date by Saturday", or you make an immediate and "creditible" threat to harm yourself or someone else, police or mental health officials may be called in. So please go talk to a counsellor. I gave you the exceptions because you need to know that outside a real threat, your confidence will be respected. -- Posted by snowcone200 at 7:59 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 I hate how everyone is loving life or lived. I felt loved for 2 dzys over the past two years. -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:03 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 luck 2 days if @ ever -- Posted by tell me again at 11:24 pm on Oct. 21, 2008 Don't give up. PS - the ones who aren't enjoying it are keeping to themselves, so you don't see them. you aren't alone.