-- Posted by tell me again at 8:54 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 deliberately avoid thinking about painful things as they occur so that it doesn't get into your head? So you avoid being in the present as things happen. I'm not talking about thinking about past things. It makes them easy to forget later, too. But it might make a big memory hole in your mind. I'm getting too good at this, it kind of creeps me out. There was a period of time when I was permanently dazed out and fucked up, but I snapped out of that. And got back to reality. These days, it's not a permanent state like that, but I avoid thinking/experiencing bad things so automatically that it doesn't take much for me to avoid living in the present and that can't be healthy. I mean, just intellectually, it looks wrong. Anyway, discuss. Or tell me to see a psychiatrist, whatever. -- Posted by citigurl3 at 8:54 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 the last month has been a daze for me too.. i dont remember shit. it was drug induced though.. not frm willpower..that is creepy -- Posted by liv21 at 8:58 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 I have.  My friends wanted to confront me about issues that I wasn't emotionally ready to talk about.  I couldn't talk, and I even had to close my eyes for a little bit to keep myself in check. -- Posted by x silver penguin x at 8:59 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 ugh me 2!!! its like my mind can only process bad things! grr -- Posted by tell me again at 9:10 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 Quote: from x silver penguin x at 8:59 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 ugh me 2!!! its like my mind can only process bad things! grr My post was about not processing them. Or rather, discarding them before they even get filed away. -- Posted by tell me again at 9:36 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 Quote: from citigurl3 at 8:54 pm on Oct. 22, 2008 the last month has been a daze for me too.. i dont remember shit. it was drug induced though.. not frm willpower..that is creepy That's sort of reassuring actually.. because drug-induced states are somewhat normal. But then again, no one can objectively define what happens in a drug-induced state or an 'insane' state. So it's pretty much a void point, bleh. -- Posted by Mindwalker at 7:52 am on Oct. 23, 2008 When painful things come up I dissociate and often there are holes in memory big enough to drive a bus through.