-- Posted by MourningAir at 3:39 am on Nov. 2, 2008 I really don't understand, I haven't seen him since 8 September and I still cry over him, still miss him like crazy. I think of him every day and hope that I won't wake up in the morning because he isn't here I've never felt heartbreak this fucking intense before. The one other time I was heart broken I felt like shit yeah but I made myself get over it because I accepted that he wasn't the right one for me... but this is different, I know he's my soulmate but I won't get to see him for 11 more months. I just want him to quit this rehab shit and tell me he's sorry and make everything better or I'm going to slit my fucking wrists. -- Posted by hi sarah at 3:43 am on Nov. 2, 2008 i feel 100% the exact same damn way. -- Posted by MourningAir at 3:46 am on Nov. 2, 2008 and what the fuck makes him so special oh my god, but he is so fucking special. i miss his face and the way he talks and my stomach is all in knots, I want to punch him in his pretty face and make him pay for all this but then kiss him all over and fall asleep in his arms. I would give ANYTHING for him to come to me asap with an apology. I'm so weepy, I just want to feel better -- Posted by MourningAir at 4:23 am on Nov. 2, 2008 never mind, I smoked some weed and now I feel mildly content, I don't care anymore. -- Posted by hi sarah at 4:34 am on Nov. 2, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 11:23 pm on Nov. 2, 2008 never mind, I smoked some weed and now I feel mildly content, I don't care anymore. as have i can you call him or do osmething? maybe talking to him would help -- Posted by MourningAir at 4:39 am on Nov. 2, 2008 It's this strict christian rehab center, I'm not allowed to even write him letters until he's been there for six months. definitely can't call or see him, not to mention he's in michigan. The worst thing to think about is that maybe he'll fucking forget about me, I bet he already has -- Posted by quittinglamejob at 12:34 pm on Nov. 2, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 3:46 am on Nov. 2, 2008 and what the fuck makes him so special oh my god, but he is so fucking special