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-- Posted by iamironman at 7:34 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

This applies to real life. Not LW. I don't give a shit here.
I hate that people know so much about me.
I hate that people know I solve Rubik's Cubes
I hate that people know my brother has brain cancer
I hate that they know I like disc golf
I hate that people know I like politics
I don't want people to know what music I listen to, what I read, watch, anything.
I hate that people know I am on medication.

I lived a high profile life for too long. People know me.

I want to be the loner. The guy no one knows nothing about. The guy who people don't talk to because they think they SHOULD. People don't care.

I don't care about them. I want to start over. Go somewhere where people DO know nothing about me. and I want those people to stay that way.


Fuck people.


-- Posted by HatesYou at 7:35 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

So for Uni, go somewhere far away and do just that.  Start over.


-- Posted by Twist3dHop3s at 7:35 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

well WAY to TELL everyone you HATE that they KNOW something about you...
its kinda awkward.


-- Posted by Justinc08 at 7:35 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

That's not a good way to look at yourself.


-- Posted by iBritt at 7:35 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Why?


-- Posted by noraa at 7:36 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

H, you can't hide forever. There's no way to completely alone. You can run and you can stay away but it won't last. It won't last for anybody. It never does.


-- Posted by seekingsimplicity at 7:36 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

how old are you?
any chance you can go far away in the near future?


-- Posted by iamironman at 7:36 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from HatesYou at 10:35 pm on Nov. 2, 2008


So for Uni, go somewhere far away and do just that. Start over.


I am. But that is too far away. I want to change now.


-- Posted by HatesYou at 7:37 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from NoNoNora383 at 10:36 pm on Nov. 2, 2008


H, you can't hide forever. There's no way to completely alone. You can run and you can stay away but it won't last. It won't last for anybody. It never does.
No.  But moving away and starting over is always reassuring.  Gives you time and space to think things through.  You can always return to your old place and visit, but with a better head on your shoulders.


-- Posted by L I F E S so G O O D at 7:38 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

I'm confused.


-- Posted by HatesYou at 7:38 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from iamironman at 10:36 pm on Nov. 2, 2008


I am. But that is too far away. I want to change now.
Yeah.


-- Posted by Sarge at 7:40 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Grass is always greener on the other side, son. I used to be they way you're describing. It was shitty as hell, I hated it.


-- Posted by chelseamorgan at 7:41 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

I feel that way too.
I really want to move to this vague place and start over.


-- Posted by blufindr at 7:41 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

But I love you


-- Posted by HatesYou at 7:42 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from blufindr at 10:41 pm on Nov. 2, 2008


But I love you
You love everybody.


-- Posted by I Am Rally Smrt at 7:44 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

I'm going to post this again, because the mods are assholes: SUCK IT UP.


-- Posted by blufindr at 7:47 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from HatesYou at 2:42 pm on Nov. 3, 2008


Quote: from blufindr at 10:41 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

But I love you
You love everybody.

I'm a hippie. Sharing the love.


-- Posted by Unaccepted at 7:56 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

If you don't let people who want to help inside, you won't be happy.


-- Posted by iamironman at 8:04 pm on Nov. 2, 2008

Quote: from Unaccepted at 10:56 pm on Nov. 2, 2008


If you don't let people who want to help inside, you won't be happy.


I'm already not happy. But then I let someone close to me. Someone at school who I thought was a good friend.

She then turns around, and calls me arrogant for talking about my brother too much. My brother has fucking brain cancer! I am allowed to talk about it!


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