-- Posted by BeautifulLies82 at 1:44 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 I haven't cut in a few months, three, I think. It's not like I want to go back to that, but I kind of do. It's like I don't know who I am with out this. Same with not eating. I'm finally eating healthy and for some reason I want to go back to that. My biggest problem is not knowing completely who I am with out it. It feels like part of my identity and I know that's not normal. -- Posted by LittleBombs at 1:45 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 I know how you feel. =/ -- Posted by FuzzyBearJr at 1:46 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 well its part of ur style but just tell urself thts the old u.. and stay away from cutting and not eating and tell urself its for the best.. -- Posted by sadnessness at 1:47 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 Do you feel detatched? If yes, that is a common sign of depression caused by chemical and hormone imbalances within the brain. Id suggest seeing a counsellor or a doctor or talking to a trusted adult. Harming yourself never actually fixes the problem, it just gives a temporary relief, and sometimes not even that (i used to feel guilty and weak about 10seconds after i cut so it never helped me at all in the end, but i still got stuck in the cycle). Get yourself some help, and try to find something in your life to distract you whilst the problems are being dealt with, like a sport or an interest or friends or something like that. -- Posted by QuantumBlaze at 1:48 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 I don't even know how you cutters do it. I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly. -- Posted by sadnessness at 2:00 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 Quote: from QuantumBlaze at 9:48 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 I don't even know how you cutters do it. I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly. i'm not sure how i did it myself to be honest. I remember sitting there in an R.E lesson with a penknife just slitting my hand open further and further without feeling anything. Thinking of it now i wonder two things: 1) how come my teacher didnt notice 2) how the hell did i do it?? -- Posted by QuantumBlaze at 8:37 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 Quote: from sadnessness at 5:00 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 Quote: from QuantumBlaze at 9:48 pm on Nov. 4, 2008 I don't even know how you cutters do it.    I'm too much of a pussy to cut myself so willingly. i'm not sure how i did it myself to be honest. I remember sitting there in an R.E lesson with a penknife just slitting my hand open further and further without feeling anything. Thinking of it now i wonder two things: 1) how come my teacher didnt notice 2) how the hell did i do it?? My God...