-- Posted by Vicodin at 7:17 am on Nov. 10, 2008 ...for about 35 hours, thus far. I decided yesterday I was just going to up and quit for a month or two. I have to go to the dentist soon and whenever they take out my wisdom teeth they'll give me hydrocodone. See, the thing is, I haven't been a day in almost 2 years without some sort of opiate. Everyday I take darvocets, vicodin, codeine, percocets. I take hydromorphone when I can get my hands on it. I just take a lot of opiates. For about 6 months I've been taking at least 10-20mgs of hydrocodone just to fall asleep. I wasn't getting any high from it but it'd help me sleep. Yesterday, being the smart person that I am, decided to up and quit and not think about it in the slightest. I need to lay off or quit entirely for a while. I just don't want to. I enjoy getting the high off them. I depend on them to sleep. I kind of need them. I don't even know why I'm making this topic. I just know that I've been up all night and it's fucking 9am and I'm never out of bed at this time. By 9pm I'll be high once again and I'll be able to sleep. The end. I'm not quitting. Fuck it. -- Posted by deaths door14 at 7:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008 i take codiene constantly, i like the help it gives me. i don't see why you should quit if it work for you. -- Posted by nikki123 at 7:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008 painkillers & sleeping cant be QUITE he addiction. talk to a doctor. -- Posted by Vicodin at 7:21 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from nikki123 at 8:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008 painkillers & sleeping cant be QUITE he addiction. talk to a doctor. ..What the hell did you just say? -- Posted by deaths door14 at 7:24 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 3:21 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from nikki123 at 8:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008 painkillers & sleeping cant be QUITE he addiction. talk to a doctor. ..What the hell did you just say? i think they said that painkillers linked with sleeping is addictive and you should speak to your doctor? -- Posted by Vicodin at 7:26 am on Nov. 10, 2008 I kind of thought that too, but I wasn't sure. I know it's addictive. Pain killers are addictive, period. It's just I don't really care, you see. I'd rather have an addiction than give them up. It hasn't even been 2 days and I already can't sleep and I want to be high. This part might even be in my head, I don't know. -- Posted by pInKiE at 7:27 am on Nov. 10, 2008 IMO you are doing something that is going to evolve into something far worse...  But maybe that's just my reasoning. -- Posted by EvilEyeV36 at 7:28 am on Nov. 10, 2008 If you are quitting, do it at a rehab center... opiate withdrawls can be REALLY UGLY. -- Posted by deaths door14 at 7:29 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 3:26 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 I kind of thought that too, but I wasn't sure. I know it's addictive. Pain killers are addictive, period. It's just I don't really care, you see. I'd rather have an addiction than give them up. It hasn't even been 2 days and I already can't sleep and I want to be high. This part might even be in my head, I don't know. i feel that exact same way, who cares if i'm addicted if it works for me. i don't want to give them up so i won't. it could be worse. -- Posted by EvilEyeV36 at 7:30 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Oh yeah, and if you wanna be high, just smoke weed... MUCH LESS COMPLICATED, ya know. -- Posted by Vicodin at 7:31 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from EvilEyeV36 at 8:28 am on Nov. 10, 2008 If you are quitting, do it at a rehab center... opiate withdrawls can be REALLY UGLY. No one except my dealer and people on the internets actually know I take them. There's no way in hell I'd ever do rehab. I'll just keep taking them! Edit: I already smoke weed. I drink too. I take benzos. I do a whole hell of a lot that I shouldn't be doing but don't plan to quit. I just want a lower tolerance. =\ -- Posted by julian at 11:23 am on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from deaths door14 at 10:20 am on Nov. 10, 2008 i take codiene constantly, i like the help it gives me. i don't see why you should quit if it work for you. This is the illusion that opiates give you.  I was this naive once.  Then opiates grabbed my balls and twisted them real hard.   -- Posted by Dancing In The Rain at 1:01 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 no no no. you need them. that's like...your reason for existing. -- Posted by Vicodin at 1:02 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Dancing In The Rain at 2:01 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 no no no. you need them. that's like...your reason for existing.  Thanks for the support. I've already taken some today anyway. Fuck it. -- Posted by k14nk at 3:08 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 my brother died from an heroine overdose :'( -- Posted by julian at 3:23 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 4:02 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Dancing In The Rain at 2:01 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 no no no. you need them. that's like...your reason for existing.  Thanks for the support. I've already taken some today anyway. Fuck it. I wish I could express the experiences of opiate use that I have had, as well as numerous close friends of mine.  I have known many people with opiate addiction, myself included.  We were all in your position at one time.  We all thought that it was benefiting us.  Maybe it did for a while.  Only now can we look back and wish that we never got involved with the drug.  This is how it starts.  Everybody always says "It will never happen to me, I have self control."   Please rethink your decision to continue using.  It will be much easier to stop now than later.  You cannot continue using the rest of your life.  If you do, your life will be very short.  You might as well learn to live without it now.  The longer you wait, the harder it will be to give it up.  You WILL have to give it up someday for one reason or another, so make it easier on yourself and do it before it gets any worse. Please take this seriously.  When I was in your position, I didn't listen to people who were telling me to stop.  I didn't realize how bad it was.  It took two felony charges and a few days behind bars with mad withdrawals for me to realize this is not the life I want.  Friends of mine have died, gone to jail/prison (prison is like 1000x worse than jail), rehab, kicked out of their house, evicted from their house, back to rehab, dropped out of school, gotten various diseases, I could go on. -- Posted by pInKiE at 8:33 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from julian at 5:23 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 4:02 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 Quote: from Dancing In The Rain at 2:01 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 no no no. you need them. that's like...your reason for existing. Thanks for the support. I've already taken some today anyway. Fuck it. I wish I could express the experiences of opiate use that I have had, as well as numerous close friends of mine. I have known many people with opiate addiction, myself included. We were all in your position at one time. We all thought that it was benefiting us. Maybe it did for a while. Only now can we look back and wish that we never got involved with the drug. This is how it starts. Everybody always says "It will never happen to me, I have self control." Please rethink your decision to continue using. It will be much easier to stop now than later. You cannot continue using the rest of your life. If you do, your life will be very short. You might as well learn to live without it now. The longer you wait, the harder it will be to give it up. You WILL have to give it up someday for one reason or another, so make it easier on yourself and do it before it gets any worse. Please take this seriously. When I was in your position, I didn't listen to people who were telling me to stop. I didn't realize how bad it was. It took two felony charges and a few days behind bars with mad withdrawals for me to realize this is not the life I want. Friends of mine have died, gone to jail/prison (prison is like 1000x worse than jail), rehab, kicked out of their house, evicted from their house, back to rehab, dropped out of school, gotten various diseases, I could go on. I wasn't going to come right out and be the den mother, but I have to agree.  I'm paying severely for things I did during an opiate addiction.. It's not worth it.  Trust me darling, not to go all intervention on you ass, or anything like that.  Just speaking from experience. -- Posted by Vicodin at 9:17 pm on Nov. 10, 2008 I honestly don't think I'll stop anytime soon.  Every single day I get the urge to do heroin. Every single day I want more and more. There's a few minutes where I want to quit, and then I'm back to it all over again. I love drugs and I really have no desire at this point to give them up. I need to, in a way I want to, but right now, nope. It really sucks that I can say that honestly. It scares the hell out of me. ..I sound so fucking bipolar. Ugh. -- Posted by Poker Shark at 3:15 am on Nov. 11, 2008 How long have you been using (daily)? -- Posted by julian at 9:07 am on Nov. 11, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 12:17 am on Nov. 11, 2008 I honestly don't think I'll stop anytime soon.  Every single day I get the urge to do heroin. Every single day I want more and more. There's a few minutes where I want to quit, and then I'm back to it all over again. I love drugs and I really have no desire at this point to give them up. I need to, in a way I want to, but right now, nope. It really sucks that I can say that honestly. It scares the hell out of me.   ..I sound so fucking bipolar. Ugh. For somebody to stop, they have to want to stop.  Unfortunately this usually only happens when the user hits "rock bottom."  Just know that this "rock bottom" will come some day.  This day you will want to stop.  By the time this happens though, you will have already dug yourself a huge hole to get out of.  Trust me, it will be easier to get out of the hole now before it gets any deeper.   Just by making this thread, you have shown some desire to stop.  At least you are contemplating it.  I think you know that it's bad for your overall well being.  Otherwise you wouldn't have made this thread.   -- Posted by robdude at 2:31 pm on Nov. 11, 2008 withdrawal can be dangerous -- Posted by Vicodin at 6:12 pm on Nov. 11, 2008 Quote: from robdude at 3:31 pm on Nov. 11, 2008 withdrawal can be dangerous Orly? I didn't know. -- Posted by robdude at 1:45 pm on Nov. 12, 2008 Quote: from Kates04 at 9:12 pm on Nov. 11, 2008 Quote: from robdude at 3:31 pm on Nov. 11, 2008 withdrawal can be dangerous Orly? I didn't know. yes, don't do it alone.