-- Posted by Anonymous at 11:49 am on Nov. 10, 2008 I have been depressed for months and i don't think i can take it anymore I HATE MYSELF i am a stupid useless piece of **** everything seems hopeless. In social situations i can't speak my throat becomes really tight and my heart feels like it is going break through my ribs, get really hot..... AAAHHHH!! i am a self harmer but i am trying to quit I have this stupid thing before i go to bed in this exact order otherwise i freak ot get panicy and can;t concentrate until i have done it until i feel happy. I have to eat in a certain way, get dressed in a set way. count my steps, make toast in a set way........ I feel like i am crazy!! my family continues to insult and bully me which makes me feel worse, Why can't i be normal.. well whatever normal is just needed a rant!   -- Posted by Missipop at 11:50 am on Nov. 10, 2008 go to the  doctors :S -- Posted by Violently Happy at 11:51 am on Nov. 10, 2008 You have OCD and most likely social anxiety. Talk to a shrink for fucks sake. Tell your family to fuck off. -- Posted by nikki123 at 11:51 am on Nov. 10, 2008 my dad makes fun of me too... -- Posted by Ollie92 at 11:52 am on Nov. 10, 2008 google this : to write love on her arms. I know that where i am ; this thursday people will being writing love on their arms to show solidarity to people who are suicidal or depressed. Go to the site and see how you are not alone :) -- Posted by The Wolfhound at 11:53 am on Nov. 10, 2008 PM me -- Posted by Absynthia at 11:54 am on Nov. 10, 2008 read..."Don't sweat the small stuff...and its all small stuff" Richard Carlson, PH.D Its quite helpful