-- Posted by a alizabeth at 5:19 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Have you ever had the feeling that ABSOLUTELY no one in the world understands what your going through or feeling? I believe this to be true. My moms in jail as of last night, called me at two thirty in the morning while im passed out, just me and my sister home, and is telling me to solve all this shit for her. and im like dude wtf, in 16 i dont need to be picking up your DRUNK mess. right? I have a boyfriend. My dream man actually. We started goign out last night, we've had a thing and been together for a while before that. Now im a virgin, we werent having sex, just fooling around. But its like, he doesnt always have to fool around sometimes he likes to just hang out. I feel so lucky. I honestly dont think i deserve him. I just love  how he makes me feel is amazing. its like a natural high. his names dillon(: He makes me want to change myself to be better but he doesnt even try to change me. Plus im so tired of holding in all these secrets that NO ONE knows. Everyone at my school has pegged me as a slut. Basically because of all these mistakes that i make yet blame on drugs and alcohol. pathetic, right? Everyone at my school thinks i drink regularly, am a TOTAL pot head. When in reality, ive only drank like 4 times and only been drunk twice. Both times at parties. And i kind of am a pot head. :/ But i havent smoked in two and a half weeks. Also, my so called 'best friend'-- i talk shit about her regularly. Like to almost everyone. Cuz i actually dont like her that much. But im not using her, cuz i have nothing to use her for. Maybe im using her to talk shit about. No idea man, no idea. Also, people used to think i was all hot and heavy on pills, another false acusation, i took vikidin like 4 times and a sleeping pill i stole from my mom once. But when people make these acusations against me i laugh, or encourage them. NEVER deny it though. I literally hate the person i am. And have become, i'd do anything to trade places with almost anyone. The only things in the world that ever make me totally happy and at peace for a while is being with My boyfrann or Weed. I sort of wish i could publish this to my school. or show people i know, but im too scared hiding behind this sheltered wall of lies and false interpretations of myself. Basically, Fuck my life. -- Posted by Vbby at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 did u leave your mom in jail? -- Posted by crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. -- Posted by cherryD at 5:21 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Aw, dear. -- Posted by concon at 5:22 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 sounds like my best mates life, except he haates his girlfriend. everyones got problems u gotta just look on the bright side. -- Posted by MushroomSatsujin at 5:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind. -- Posted by UXnIHAOnUXbmUXn at 5:43 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 1. sometimes even decent parents get in trouble with the law. as long as it's not a regular thing i don't see why it's unreasonable to help your mother out. 2. at 16 it's possible but very unlikely that you've found your 'dream man'. just fair warning. 3. no you're not a drug addict or alcoholic. you're about average for your age. you've taken 4 vicodin in your life? i've taken over 4,000 probably. 4. you're talking shit about your "friend" because you have self-esteem issues. by pointing out their problems it helps you feel superior and ignore your own problems. this can lead to douchey bitch syndrome. and then no one will like you. 5. you're dependent on your boyfriend and finding periodical escapes from life via chemicals. you've heard plenty about how creating a drug dependency can be dangerous, but you must also keep in mind that banking your happiness on a boyfriend can have equally bad results. -- Posted by a alizabeth at 5:45 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from UXnIHAOnUXbmUXn at 5:43 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 1. sometimes even decent parents get in trouble with the law. as long as it's not a regular thing i don't see why it's unreasonable to help your mother out.   2. at 16 it's possible but very unlikely that you've found your 'dream man'. just fair warning.   3. no you're not a drug addict or alcoholic. you're about average for your age. you've taken 4 vicodin in your life? i've taken over 4,000 probably.   4. you're talking shit about your "friend" because you have self-esteem issues. by pointing out their problems it helps you feel superior and ignore your own problems. this can lead to douchey bitch syndrome. and then no one will like you.   5. you're dependent on your boyfriend and finding periodical escapes from life via chemicals. you've heard plenty about how creating a drug dependency can be dangerous, but you must also keep in mind that banking your happiness on a boyfriend can have equally bad results. -- Posted by a alizabeth at 5:49 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from Vbby at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 did u leave your mom in jail? what do you mean leave her in jail? it just happened at 2:30 thismorning and her court is on monday. and she has a thousand dollar bail. idk what i can do? -- Posted by crushdarling at 5:53 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind. Why thank you for saying my post was stupid. I mean, its REALLY stupid of me to suggest to anyone that getting rid of drugs from their life may actually make their life better. -- Posted by MushroomSatsujin at 5:54 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:53 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post    OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind. Why thank you for saying my post was stupid. I mean, its REALLY stupid of me to suggest to anyone that getting rid of drugs from their life may actually make their life better. It is, actually, especially when the post had little to do with it. -- Posted by crushdarling at 5:58 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:54 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:53 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post   OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind.    Why thank you for saying my post was stupid. I mean, its REALLY stupid of me to suggest to anyone that getting rid of drugs from their life may actually make their life better. It is, actually, especially when the post had little to do with it. Wow....she SAID she does weed. So it's pretty relevant. It seemed she didn't ask specifically for answers, but more for opinions and thoughts about what happened. And thats what I gave her. -- Posted by MushroomSatsujin at 6:01 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:58 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:54 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:53 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post       OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind.   Why thank you for saying my post was stupid. I mean, its REALLY stupid of me to suggest to anyone that getting rid of drugs from their life may actually make their life better. It is, actually, especially when the post had little to do with it. Wow....she SAID she does weed. So it's pretty relevant. It seemed she didn't ask specifically for answers, but more for opinions and thoughts about what happened. And thats what I gave her. So why dont you give her your opinion about the other 90% of her post? -- Posted by UXnIHAOnUXbmUXn at 6:02 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 actually i think if anything the weed is going to help her lol -- Posted by crushdarling at 6:06 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 9:01 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:58 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:54 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:53 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 8:23 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from crushdarling at 5:20 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Thats pretty messed up. You'd be better of without the weed, you know. haha wow, the stupidity flows from this post    OP: Life sucks. Thats a fact. Just try to make the best of your situation and keep a positive mind.       Why thank you for saying my post was stupid. I mean, its REALLY stupid of me to suggest to anyone that getting rid of drugs from their life may actually make their life better. It is, actually, especially when the post had little to do with it.    Wow....she SAID she does weed. So it's pretty relevant. It seemed she didn't ask specifically for answers, but more for opinions and thoughts about what happened. And thats what I gave her. So why dont you give her your opinion about the other 90% of her post? Oh, so I HAVE to give my opinion on absolutely EVERYTHING she mentioned? That's weird, because I didn't realize the rules on LW said you had to do that. -- Posted by MushroomSatsujin at 6:08 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Im just wondering why you thought telling her to stop smoking weed will help all her problems -- Posted by crushdarling at 6:13 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Quote: from MushroomSatsujin at 9:08 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Im just wondering why you thought telling her to stop smoking weed will help all her problems I never said that in the first place. If you read what I originally said, I said that losing the weed would make you better off. Meaning its the first step towards getting your life together. I didn't say "Give up the weed and everything will be alright!" Next time, actually READ posts before quoting it and calling it stupid. -- Posted by MushroomSatsujin at 6:18 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 Yeah, I guess I expected to much for LW to post something actually helpful -- Posted by a alizabeth at 6:31 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 wow guys. lets be mature and argue a little bit more. (: and i agree with the guy a while back. weed does help.