-- Posted by quijote at 8:06 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 And I don't necessarily mean, "Oh, nobody pays any attention to me; I'm so invisible and lonely," though the two feelings might very well be related. I'm talking about the cold, paralyzing sort of feeling that you actually don't exist; that you might blink and disappear, or that the world might swallow you up. There are moments (right now, for instance) when I feel acutely that I must not have existed the previous day, or for the two weeks prior— that when I go to sleep, even if I wake up the next morning, I might not actually exist. I don't wholly know how to explain it. It's like waking from a nightmare and being unable to shake the last few threads of the dream... and then having them hold you down throughout the day. Or the deeply-held conviction that the world just doesn't fit together, that everything really won't be okay in the end. Is this an indication of some sort of issue? Is there anything to be done for it? Any thoughts? -- Posted by 321go at 8:08 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 lolz at existential crisis Also, take a more active role in the lives of others.  Fuck with them a bit.  That usually does the trick. -- Posted by bstodge at 8:08 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 i feel like that when i sleep. or when i used to have seizures. -- Posted by Skip at 8:08 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 do you feel derealization? aka depersonalization? -- Posted by Fo Sho at 8:09 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 um, I have the constant fear of ceasing to exist, but I don't think thats the same. -- Posted by Skip at 8:09 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 thats the clinical term for not feeling like you're fully there im not sure if it relates fully to what ur experiencing but -- Posted by lightskaylaction at 8:10 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 that happens to me when i'm reading a book. i get so engrossed in it that when other stuff in my life happens i'm like "is this real?" -- Posted by quijote at 8:11 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 That's sort of what it's like, Skip, yeah. Or part of it, anyway. -- Posted by peptobismol9 at 8:12 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 I would love to not exist. If I dont exist then I dont Care anyways cause im not alive. -- Posted by quijote at 8:29 pm on Nov. 16, 2008 That's the thing, peptobismol9: I do want to exist. I want to care, and I want to feel like I have some role to play in life, but as it stands, I just tend to feel that the world spins on around me. Or that I don't live so much as go through the motions. Or something.