-- Posted by bananawhore at 2:23 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 I do the same thing everyweek, i finally figured it out "binge" (technically what i consider a binge day is only 1000 calories for the whole day, but ya) all weekend. "starve" (300 calories a day, or less) all week. It never ends. and im completely obsessed with thinking about food and how fat i am, even though im slightly underweight. its not  a stage its been more than a year.... -- Posted by XxKristinxX at 2:24 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 uhhh are you wanting it to be an eating disorder? -- Posted by Lally at 2:25 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 Yes its an eating disorder, and nothing to be proud  of. -- Posted by bananawhore at 2:28 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 im not proud simpluy curious as to what the hell is wrong with me. -- Posted by RoseBeautyMagical416 at 2:30 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 yes it is females should have about 1800 to 2000 calories a day.. yes it does sound like a lot.  for guys its more... i'm bot sure how much. you should start to seek help, because its a very hard thing to overcome. only having 300 calories a day will destroy your body... get help -- Posted by hivemind at 2:33 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 yeah it definatly sound like it. -- Posted by hersheyparker at 2:33 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 See a doc, whatever the case what you are doing is not healthy. -- Posted by bigdutchman at 2:34 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 you call 1000 calories a binge? that's like half my breakfast. yea that's an eating disorder. -- Posted by bananawhore at 4:49 pm on Nov. 18, 2008 any other opinins? i was googling ED's would this be EDnos? -- Posted by Bearsy at 4:52 am on Nov. 22, 2008 Yes, that sounds like what they call EDNOS (eating disorder not otherwise specified). Most eating disorders fall under this category. You seem to be leaning towards Anorexia Nervosa though, the most dangerous mental disorder. You clearly know logically that 1000 calories in a single day isn't binge-eating, so I take it this is based on irrational, obsessive-compulsive fear rather than ignorance about nutrition. OCD sucks, because you can't rationalize with yourself when over rationalizing is the problem. So I'm sure you already know that it's not normal or healthy to be obsessed with food/your weight, nor is it a good life to focus your day around counting calories. It's one of the hardest things to beat, because your body knows you're starving and is going to want to focus on food so that you'll EAT IT, and that focus makes you all more aware of and obsessed with your weight.   You gotta stop and think to yourself for a minute... what are all the benefits of having an eating disorder and what are the benefits of getting over it?   Compare them. Weigh them side by side and it'll be really obvious that the benefits of recovering far outweigh those of keeping the disorder. You could have a life rather than just a menu. You could enjoy your date rather than the dinner. You could focus on things worth focusing on rather than something you're terrified of. If you need to be obsessed, become obsessed with recovering well. Once your brain is receiving adequate nutrition, you'll be able to think a lot more clearly. Don't try starting yourself off by binging on food though, that could lead to bulimia or put your body into shock. In my (non-medical) opinion, you should start with upping yourself to a few hundred more calories per day each week until you're up to a normal 1800 calorie diet. It'll probably be nerve racking at first, but in the stage that you are, you should be able to feel a stronger sense of accomplishment in the bravery it takes to eat more food than usual than in the apathy of choosing to deny yourself more food. Good luck. -- Posted by Catacomb at 1:55 pm on Nov. 22, 2008 Bearsy's using that response for her SL application also. if you are underweight, purging is a horrible way to punish your body