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-- Posted by Anonymous at 1:28 am on Nov. 19, 2008
Today i went to one of my friend's places today. She is one of my closest girl friends. (I am a guy). She has a boyfriend now, and i USED to like her earlier in the year. I asked her out once, but she wasn't interested, however she gave me signs that she did like me. Anyway, when i was there i was playing her guitar and i was singing her songs, and showing her songs i had written in the last 3 weeks and she was loving it. She thought it was great.. We went to the shop for lunch and i was being silly, dancing to the music on the radio in the shop, she said "Shut up, you're embarresing." while she was laughing and she gave me a push (it wa all friendly stuff) i said "so? i don't care, i dont live here." and we both laughed.. We got a bucket of chips to share. As i was driving back to her house with our lunch, we were eating the chips from the cup holder in my car, and we both went to grab chips and we touched hands.. Then the attraction started all over again.. I didn't want it to mean anything, and i guess it didn't.. When we got back to her house we finished the chips and we went into her dad's music room to check out his drumkit, i left my sun glasses inside, and she went back and got them and was wearing them.. We were laughing so much.. It was just a day of laughing and joking.. It was really fun.. Anyway spending a day with her made me become re attracted to her.. She's got a boyfriend and she knows most of my secrets and things i dont tell anyone.. I think its safe to say i like her again.. But im not going to follow my feelings up this time.. Its hard enough as it is, because i can't see her often she lives far away and we're finished school so we dont see much fo eachother.. So what can i do to deal with the pain of walking away from her..? Thanks for reading and taking the time to respond..
-- Posted by blufindr at 1:29 am on Nov. 19, 2008
You don't. You learn to cope, that's all you can do.
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