-- Posted by citigurl3 at 3:50 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 I think i give up. ... my best friend and our entire group stopped talking to me when they found out i do drugs.. and then they told everyone that i used to cut and that i was seeing a therapist.. then they told the school that i do drugs, am suicidal, and drink before school. I got drug tested and failed. they found cocaine, ecstasy, pot, alcohol, speed, meth..everything. my parents wont let me out of the house... wont let me talk to any of my new friends.. and my old friends are either ignoring me or making my life a living hell at school. So i had three friends that i had to keep a secret from my parents.. i moved into one of their lockers to get away from my old friends... one of them is a guy and he said i was the only girl that made him happy, and that i was really special.. and i thought i would be ok,,,, then after i got in trouble and couldnt leave the house... he dicthed me and now he is saying the same things to my new locker buddy.. who knows i like him.. and flirts right in front of me. he just wanted to fuck me. so now i get drug tested once a month... my mom screams at me everytime she sees me.. says that i dont deserve friends .. she thretens me and hits me. my dad lost all respect for me.. and wont talk to me. i started to cut again.. and my dad found out... now he is taking my door out. i cant function with all of this pain... i keep writing suicide notes.. and i dont have a good reason why i shouldnt do it. i guess im just waiting. -- Posted by QuantumBlaze at 3:52 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 I'm not getting warned again. Sorry, you're on your own. -- Posted by Written in Love at 3:53 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 I'm sorry. :( Want to talk, I'm open ears. -- Posted by error at 3:58 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 so see a therapist, get your life straight and prove to your friends and family that your not a bad person. as for the cutting, i know its hard to stop but its not going to help you permanently get through things. i hope things work out for you, and i'm here to talk if you need to. -- Posted by RIMHfire at 3:58 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 I'd smack the bitches how ratted on you. -- Posted by Neon Lights at 3:59 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 Quote: from mandieelovess at 3:53 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 I'm sorry. :( Want to talk, I'm open ears. I also agree and I'll also talk -- Posted by theyareAs at 4:04 pm on Nov. 19, 2008 cut the drugs fer sure