-- Posted by Violently Happy at 8:09 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Apparently I have numb rage. Whatever that is. I told my counselor I like to hurt animals sometimes and burn things down when I get in my weird mood. She says it's numb rage since I can't distinguish what I'm feeling at the time. I never realized how bad it was. My friends tell me I am always angry but I don't think I am. I don't feel angry all the time. But damn I don't even know what I'm feeling. -- Posted by kbaby22 at 8:11 am on Nov. 20, 2008 I think i have anger problems too. But i would NEVER hurt an animal or burn anything down... -- Posted by Wheeldon at 8:13 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Poor animals.. What have they ever done. -- Posted by batista90 at 8:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff -- Posted by Violently Happy at 8:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Wheeldon at 11:13 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Poor animals.. What have they ever done. Would you rather me hurt people, you stupid asshole. -- Posted by Violently Happy at 8:16 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff I wish I had staff watching over me. I punch myself in the head usually. -- Posted by Al Legator at 8:30 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Wheeldon at 11:13 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Poor animals.. What have they ever done. Would you rather me hurt people, you stupid asshole. Hurting animals is often an indicator of hurting people later in life. I don't understand the term "numb rage", but I'm not a counselor or shrink. But from what I got out of your post, you might be numbing all the feelings that would normally hurt you but reversing them outward again toward animals. This is obviously not a healthy way to be for you or people, or animals, which are both innocent of doing you wrong and are powerless against you. So it sounds like you are deflecting pain away from yourself (normal reaction of course) but your anger at whatever is causing you pain (anger is also normal when in pain or threatened) is being re-directed outward . Your powerlessness is being translated into hostility and violence against powerless  animals...and later, quite likely, people. I hope you have a good counsellor; a psychologist might be better trained to help you. -- Posted by 0h h3ll n0 at 8:37 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Wheeldon at 11:13 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Poor animals.. What have they ever done. Would you rather me hurt people, you stupid asshole. Is there really that much of a difference? I don't think someone that hurts animals to get out their rage is any better than someone that does the same to people. -- Posted by batista90 at 8:46 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:16 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff I wish I had staff watching over me. I punch myself in the head usually. ya but enjoy freedom u get, because u dont have  staff to watch u they cant restrain u either http://img371.imageshack.us/my.php?image=skompaktohnepa8.jpg   -- Posted by Violently Happy at 9:51 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:46 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:16 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff I wish I had staff watching over me. I punch myself in the head usually. ya but enjoy freedom u get, because u dont have staff to watch u they cant restrain u either http://img371.imageshack.us/my.php?image=skompaktohnepa8.jpg I'll end up there one day. -- Posted by Mr Positive at 12:42 pm on Nov. 20, 2008 You are what you believe you are.   If you believe you have anger problems, then you will have anger problems... Because I believe i'm positive, I feel positive, and I don't let 1 negative though enter my mind.   -- Posted by ASIANRACER32 at 2:28 pm on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 12:51 pm on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:46 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:16 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff I wish I had staff watching over me. I punch myself in the head usually. ya but enjoy freedom u get, because u dont have  staff to watch u they cant restrain u either http://img371.imageshack.us/my.php?image=skompaktohnepa8.jpg   I'll end up there one day. haha, yeah right. let me try to simulate the pain and suffering with people that you'll be surrounded by. even though you are restrained and set away from the "outside" world that or any kind of treatment won't help you. only you can help you , no one knows what you think execpt you. I've known people with worse conditions than yourself the way you are descirbing things. -- Posted by Violently Happy at 2:22 pm on Nov. 21, 2008 Quote: from ASIANRACER32 at 5:28 pm on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 12:51 pm on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:46 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from Violently Happy at 8:16 am on Nov. 20, 2008 Quote: from batista90 at 11:14 am on Nov. 20, 2008 i often bang my head to wall if i get angry lol but then again thats why i get restrained by staff I wish I had staff watching over me. I punch myself in the head usually. ya but enjoy freedom u get, because u dont have staff to watch u they cant restrain u either http://img371.imageshack.us/my.php?image=skompaktohnepa8.jpg I'll end up there one day. haha, yeah right. let me try to simulate the pain and suffering with people that you'll be surrounded by. even though you are restrained and set away from the "outside" world that or any kind of treatment won't help you. only you can help you , no one knows what you think execpt you. I've known people with worse conditions than yourself the way you are descirbing things. anger is not the only thing I have going on. I'm schizophrenic. I'm only high functioning right now because I just got off of my antipsychotics. It's already starting to get bad again. I know I will end up in the loony bin one day. All it takes is letting me loose in the streets when I'm having one of my psychotic freak outs.