-- Posted by nyn at 1:04 am on Nov. 23, 2008 I'm not even sure anymore. I just feel so tired, and my head is pounding, and my music seems too loud, and I turn it off and it's too quiet and I turn it down and I can hear myself think. I have so much to do, and I just can't bring myself to do it. I've been on LW all day, and this place only feels like home when I feel so shitty. I want you, I hate you, you barely literate fuck, and when you tell me to go die, I wanted to because I'd do back flips for you. We've tried this, what, 4 times already? I fucking hate how you only act like you love me when I want to leave. You needy piece of shit. It's been two years. I can't do this anymore. It's all bullshit. I am feeling so fucking unhinged. I just want to smash everything I see, and I can't even seem to adequately express how I feel in words. Nothing makes sense, and I have a fucking migraine and I would just be content to sleep through the next few months. I fucked everything up, and I can't live out these mistakes. There is a jar on my desk that I just want to break. I don't even care what any of you stupid fucks think about this. You think you're all so fucking cool? Who the fuck comes here to be cool? You people, the ones who make those "witty" remarks and waltz around with your heads up your arses -and I'm one of them - you're what is ruining LW. Blame the trolls, blame the newer members, reminisce about the "good ol' days"... It's all bullshit. This is bullshit. People are stupid. They're teenagers and they're confused and need help. Thank fuck they don't come here to have little tennis pseudo intellectual bitchfights with 20 yr olds with nothing better to do than antagonise the people they were years prior and troll. You're all just petty, fucked up egomaniacs. You've outgrown this place and it's fucking pathetic that you still hang around. I can't deal with this shit, but I also don't think I can live without it. It took me 5 fucking years to become this embittered, and I'm supposed to still have the optimism of youth. I can't bring myself to close my account, and I know I'm fucking pathetic and this does nothing. I hope the shit hits the fan, and soon. Everything ends. And what the fuck can you say to this, you fucking point whores? /rant. Good times, kids. -- Posted by HeavenShallBurn at 1:06 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Go get blasted or hammered... Or fuck... it helps me when shit like that happens... or take some tylonol... -- Posted by blufindr at 1:07 am on Nov. 23, 2008 I'm sorry I do love you, though, and I hope things get better for you. -- Posted by nyn at 1:08 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from blufindr at 6:37 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 I'm sorry I do love you, though, and I hope things get better for you. I know, Blu. That wasn't really directed at you, ya'know... -- Posted by blufindr at 1:10 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from Salamander at 8:08 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from blufindr at 6:37 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 I'm sorry I do love you, though, and I hope things get better for you. I know, Blu. That wasn't really directed at you, ya'know... I know. But I didn't even realise in all the time that I've been talking to you that you felt like this. For the person that's been jerking you around in your relationship: Take yourself away from that person, don't take their calls, don't meet up with them, until you're ready to do so without feeling like shit? -- Posted by I heart nubs at 1:15 am on Nov. 23, 2008 I know what you mean. But this place is for college students also. I feel almost exactly the same about life. But maybe it's me that has the problem. And maybe it's you that has the problem. -- Posted by nyn at 1:17 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from blufindr at 6:40 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from Salamander at 8:08 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from blufindr at 6:37 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 I'm sorry I do love you, though, and I hope things get better for you.    I know, Blu. That wasn't really directed at you, ya'know... I know. But I didn't even realise in all the time that I've been talking to you that you felt like this. For the person that's been jerking you around in your relationship: Take yourself away from that person, don't take their calls, don't meet up with them, until you're ready to do so without feeling like shit? Shit, I've been talking to everyone today. Iono. It's just a bad weekend. Blah. :\ -- Posted by rosebud at 1:19 am on Nov. 23, 2008 -- Posted by nyn at 1:20 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Brendan, get the fuck out. I haven't got the patience for your shit today. -- Posted by blufindr at 1:20 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from Salamander at 8:17 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Shit, I've been talking to everyone today. Iono. It's just a bad weekend. Blah. :\ I understand. We all have these days. -- Posted by rosebud at 1:27 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from Salamander at 8:20 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Brendan, get the fuck out. I haven't got the patience for your shit today. there's nothing you can do about it except get even angrier, and i don't give a fuck what you say so you can't hurt me back -- Posted by Lukerules12 at 1:28 am on Nov. 23, 2008 I do hope your ok.... I guess one day you just wake up and... oh shit... -- Posted by SpRiNgS at 1:47 am on Nov. 23, 2008 damn what happened? -- Posted by nyn at 1:48 am on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from rosebud at 6:57 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Quote: from Salamander at 8:20 pm on Nov. 23, 2008 Brendan, get the fuck out. I haven't got the patience for your shit today. there's nothing you can do about it except get even angrier, and i don't give a fuck what you say so you can't hurt me back What gave you the impression I wanted to hurt you?