-- Posted by MourningAir at 1:06 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 How the hell do I go about doing this? My own attitude makes me sick. I know my friends love and care about me but at the same time it makes me feel so shitty that they don't make more of an effort to be around me. I keep thinking I'm boring, I second guess myself but then also I know I'm not boring because when I am around people they are all up in my shit ffs!! I always think people are talking shit about me too. I hear my name being mentioned and assume it's negative (especially when I'm on LSD). I thought hey maybe no one wants to hang out with me because I'm too "crazy" so I've fucking chilled out on doing dxm but goddamn I can only take so much of this b.s.! I feel like a worthless piece of shit most of the time. -- Posted by makingxmexsmile at 1:07 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Lots of people are the same. It's hard to do, honestly. I just started acknolwedging that I AM kickass, but yes. I do still suck... XD Kinda like a middle ground. -- Posted by 007bondgirl08 at 1:07 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 aww don't feel like that, if you need to chat i'm here. -- Posted by SpottedTiger at 1:08 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Make a change? Go out and meet new people, that might help. -- Posted by xoAllixs0n at 1:08 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 I ALWAYS think people are talking shit. I hear people laughing when they're in my vicinity, and I automatically think it's about me. Always. -- Posted by Teenie1 at 1:09 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 It will get better in time x -- Posted by MourningAir at 1:12 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Now I've started thinking maybe my friends only ever hung out with me because I always had drugs or was in the process of getting some. awesomeeeeeeee. -- Posted by libertine at 1:13 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 I'm sure you get plenty of compliments, it's just a matter of learning to accept them as true rather than assuming something else. My method is just to try to be as objective as possible when judging myself by really thinking about what people say rather than just listening to my own feelings. When you've got a more realistic picture of yourself it's easier to feel good about the good bits. -- Posted by boobookittyfuck at 1:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse -- Posted by sadnessness at 1:26 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 I can empathise with a lot of those feelings. I was always told that if i acted confident, more people would be drawn to me, which would then make me really confident. It works to an extent, and thats about the best advice i can give -- Posted by sadnessness at 1:30 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 9:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse really supportive. -- Posted by MourningAir at 1:43 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse i highly doubt it, superficial bitch. -- Posted by boobookittyfuck at 1:57 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 1:43 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse i highly doubt it, superficial bitch. woah take the dick out of your ass pwt -- Posted by MourningAir at 1:59 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:57 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 1:43 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse    i highly doubt it, superficial bitch. woah take the dick out of your ass pwt you're one to talk, coming into my thread "zomg I have so many more problems, pity me everyone!!11" -- Posted by boobookittyfuck at 2:00 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 1:59 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:57 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from MourningAir at 1:43 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 Quote: from boobookittyfuck at 4:21 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i have a worse problem so it could be worse     i highly doubt it, superficial bitch.    woah take the dick out of your ass pwt you're one to talk, coming into my thread "zomg I have so many more problems, pity me everyone!!11" ummm no that was you -- Posted by MourningAir at 2:03 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 nah, I was asking for advice. Some of us don't bitch just for the fuck of it, sry2say. -- Posted by iconoclast at 5:41 pm on Nov. 28, 2008 i dont know, self esteem really ultimately just comes from within, not from outside. it does sound stupid but i mean it in a different way. sure, without people around you trying to be close to you and caring and whatnot, you might be empty and hollow, but you wont be low in 'confidence'. at least thats not my case people dont like my shit either but thats because theyre lame, not because i have some kind of problem socializing. and most people put in low effort into their friendships because theyre ignorant and shallow. i mean i hate all of this with a passion, but i dont blame myself for it at all. i guess the main thing is just really observing what a fucking joke most people are, and then if that sinks in enough it becomes hard to blame yourself for their stupidity, and eventually impossible (i dont know if this makes sense) because im pretty much friendless, empty, bored out of my fucking skull, but i have much more confidence than most people who have even a dozen close friends -- Posted by MourningAir at 12:33 am on Nov. 29, 2008 I accept that many people are lame motherfuckers but I also realize I need the company of others to keep myself happy. I just get so down on myself. Like an hour after I made this post one of my friends called me and two of them texted me to hang out... I dunno why I let a couple days of nothing get to me. -- Posted by iconoclast at 6:23 am on Nov. 29, 2008 i mean im not happy either because i dont have company but im sure as hell confident -- Posted by Catacomb at 9:27 am on Nov. 29, 2008 improve your self esteem by hanging around people with even less self esteem and maybe something will occur to you