-- Posted by bananawhore at 7:04 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 Hiding depression for a year, but maybe longer, since i don't remember ever being happy. but its been getting worse this past year. worse and worse and worse. i started cutting two months ago, and ive been doing it almost daily, and i cant stop. and for the last two months ive been thinking more and more about suicide. not as the easy way out, since i certainly wouldnt consider suicded easy, so many things can go wrong, but just as my "future" i guess. does that make any sense? or is it pathetic that i feel like this? -- Posted by bananawhore at 7:13 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 anyone have an answer? -- Posted by JackieisBlue at 7:15 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 its a mental disorder, its not your fault that you feel that way. message me if you want to chat. -- Posted by hellojamielee at 7:16 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 i personally think suicide is pathetic. but maybe you should get some help, talk to someone. -- Posted by ScandalousWench at 7:17 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 Depression is not at all pathetic, it's a disease. Honey you need to stop hurting yourself it might be a temperary relief but it does you no good in the long run. Get yourself some help, tell your parents, talk to your councellor, call your teen help line(they usually have an office or clinic where you can talk to someone for free in person) whatever your comfortable with, but get help. Because believe me if you don't it gets worse. -- Posted by bananawhore at 7:17 pm on Nov. 30, 2008 ah i know, i just feel like, its patetic that it happened so fast.