-- Posted by Anonymous at 7:39 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 I'm going to take time out of my day to worry about how and why I have never had a girlfriend. Really I can't even remember if I've consciously flirted with a girl before. My approach to attracting females for the last 15-14 years has been to let them show in some obvious way that they are interested in me. Well even if they gave me signs I would assume they were just being friendly and not interested in that kind of way anyway. first, I don't flirt with anyone because I assume that I am undesirable. The situation I'm afraid of is if I somehow tell a girl I like her she won't return the feeling. I'm too sensitive to let something like that not affect me. I have low self esteem and for the last couple of years I've become almost suicidal so I won't let something like that go.I'll keep it in my mind forever.I mean when i think about it do I have evidence that I am undesirable. well I assume that because I can sense it. I may be retarded but this is something obvious that I can sense. is that evidence? well if I try to remember there have been a few instances of where I've overheard girls say that I was undesirable but most of the time I assume it. There have been a few rare times where I heard that like 1 or 2 girls found that I was attractive. one of the bad experiences that affects me was back in kindergarten when I liked this girl and I tried to sit near her all the time but she didn't like that at all. Then in fifth grade this girl found out I liked her but I can't remember what she said or even if she spoke to me after the fact. I mean I remember a friend of her's saying that I should buy something to woo her like my friend did; but I never did that if i find out that I am really undesirable the good part is that right now Im getting used to being alone and I really don't think about females often or I could just kill myself.   any advice? -- Posted by raza301 at 7:41 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 i feel your pain brother, well not the suicidal part -- Posted by lisababyyy at 7:42 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 killing yourself badddd move BUT to yourself you may feel undesirable but to someone else you are that sexiest thing alive! -- Posted by heartshapemedium at 7:47 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 Well u know what u will find a girl .... don't worry about it. I my self feel like that but is bcause I have a bad image of my self ..I hate my self but I deal with it and u will too -- Posted by SeekingPurity at 8:33 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 Heh, low self esteem, I definitely understand that. Just because you don't think yourself to be good looking or have a good personality doesn't mean that it's true. Even without girls, life goes on, just live it.