-- Posted by 66692 at 8:43 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 ts so hard when you are stuck...in a situation where you didn't do a fucking thing...and your just stuck as the world comes crashing down...all i can do is sit here and watch...all i can do is hope that you can keep it together when it matters...sometimes i can't...one person has seen a glimpse of that..and i hated it...i feel weak when those i don't really know see that side of me..like they are stealing a part of me..on top of all this shit i have the act to worry about. college in the spring, girlscouts, and religion(betcha didnt see that coming from me)..and id say work..most ppl would but at work its safe...i can't let myself think about all this shit..and i have ppl that care about me..its a good feeling walking in and hearing ppl saying "yay susanna's here" the min i walk through that door i leave my problems outside and most things are fine..but when i get out it all comes back and i just want to go back in there to be safe..or on the lucky nights i get a hug i just want to stay there...and then there are the weekends..when i am in his arms..thats when i am the safest...because my thoughts are there but i am free to cry and i fell like its going to be truly ok..because i have him..sometimes it feels like the only real part of my life..the only true and loving thing..what i need more than anything in these times is someone just to tell me its all going to be ok..and i need people to listen to me..and be there...this time is really hard for me..but through it all the sound of his voice keeps me together...our love is sometimes the only real thing to me..because everything else is going to shit....i stopped cutting a while back..now its started up again -- Posted by Zetsuai at 8:46 pm on Dec. 1, 2008 Whenever you feel like cutting, just call your boyfriend or something like that. If you want to talk, PM me. I don't really have any advice for this. I do hope things improve for you though. -- Posted by XxGoredollxX21 at 3:33 am on Dec. 3, 2008 yeh yeah yeah. i know what you mean. i really do.  i stopped for like, 2 months and i just screwed that up a few days ago. what i did before though was call my boyfriend because like you, our love was the only real thing i could stand on for a bit.  but if you want to talk you can PM me also   ii really hope things get better..