-- Posted by Anonymous at 2:22 pm on Dec. 4, 2008 The reason I ask, is because I honestly don't know what to call them. I'll try to explain. They don't really have names, even though we all know each other exist, but to help try to show you what I mean, let's call them Sam and Mike, if your religious it'll help explain it. They, with me, are what makes up who I am, it's hard to explain, like I have overall say most of the time, and Sam and Mike talk to me. It's literally like those cartoon shows where you have the little devil on one shoulder and an angel on the other. Sam is the evil side. I really don't know any other word for it. They are both like collections of emotions, but at the same time, they think independently of me, and tell me. Sam is the one who hates, who will scream at me the things my step-dad told me over and over again, things that make me want to kill myself. He's almost won a few times. He is the one that tells me that humanity is weak, and so am I. He hates everything, everything sickens him, but me the most. He's completely taken over before, and I'm not being melodramatic when I say, I get kicked into the backseat of my mind, and he does everything, and I don't even remember till afterwards. He was in control when I knocked another kid's tooth out, he's the one in control when I finally snap and I hurt people. Usually I'm really quiet and passive trying to keep them under control, but other students think I'm just a pushover, then...yeah. I'm almost never violent, but when he takes over, I've sent two kids to the hospital. He's the one where I'll tell a kid something I never want to say to anyone, and everyone gets really quiet and the kid won't talk to anyone for days. Then there's Mike, he's not really the good side, but more of, normal. He's the one who always wants me to stop hating myself, and tries to save me. The only problem, is Sam has him shut up most of the time. Mike's usually just gotten me to do good things, like randomly help someone, and he's what takes over whenever I manage to tell anyone about what Sam tells me I can't tell anyone, because it'll make me weak and everyone will hate me. Then there's just me, the one who's usually in control, they are always there, right now I can talk to them if I want to. We all know we are separate, yet we are all the same person. We have had full blown conversations, there have literally been times where I've had long complex debates with them in my mind, but at the same time, they can take over whenever something severe happens. I'm the person who usually picks what I want, but I always like hold them back, and whenever something happens, I just run back into my mind, and one of them takes over. I really don't want to be crazy. Please tell me this is normal. -- Posted by Live Just To Die at 2:46 pm on Dec. 4, 2008 I would say that you have changed the way you look at yourself or the way you experience everyday life so that you feel like you have a detatched form as though you are an outsider looking in. Its called Depersonalization and can make the person who suffers from it anxious and paranoid. Its a prominent symptom in anxiety disorders, clinical depression, bipolar disorder, sleep deprivation, and some types of epilepsy.     Treatment depends on the underlying cause of it all. I would speak to someone with no emotional attatchments to you about the worry you have. If they are emotionally attatched they might panic or remove themselves from you. Make sure its someone who will keep it to themselves like a councellor or a teacher at school/college. If you feel you cannot talk to someone then try to write it down, if that is too much then copy and paste what is written here, you have managed to write a good account of what you see and feel.     Good luck with it all and if you need anymore help or information I am here, though I may not be able to help any more than this.