-- Posted by Anonymous at 1:16 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 I have no one to talk to this about, except my Grandma, who is pissing me off by offering "positive" solutions, and is telling me to see a counselor. I will not see a counselor, because first and foremost, my depression is situational. I got depressed because of a specific reason. It has ruined my life. I've been depressed for about four months now, and it's only getting worse, because my situation is not getting better, despite me trying my hardest. I don't think it will ever get better, and that I am doomed to a life of failure. If things keep getting worse, I may actually kill myself. I'd never thought about it before, but I have no where else to put my emotions. I am going to explode. I bring books to class to read now, so I don't start crying right then and there. My mother, due to my depression, simply thinks I'm an asshole, because I've stopped doing chores,etc. and all I do is lay in my room. So, she's taken all my privileges away from me, so now I have even MORE time to think about killing myself/depression/my problems. I just don't have the motivation anymore. I used to be a strong believer in God, but now I really believe I have been abandoned and left to die. -- Posted by yellowsapphire at 1:20 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 9:16 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 I have no one to talk to this about, except my Grandma, who is pissing me off by offering "positive" solutions, and is telling me to see a counselor. I will not see a counselor, because first and foremost, my depression is situational. I got depressed because of a specific reason. It has ruined my life. I've been depressed for about four months now, and it's only getting worse, because my situation is not getting better, despite me trying my hardest. I don't think it will ever get better, and that I am doomed to a life of failure. If things keep getting worse, I may actually kill myself. I'd never thought about it before, but I have no where else to put my emotions. I am going to explode. I bring books to class to read now, so I don't start crying right then and there. My mother, due to my depression, simply thinks I'm an asshole, because I've stopped doing chores,etc. and all I do is lay in my room. So, she's taken all my privileges away from me, so now I have even MORE time to think about killing myself/depression/my problems. I just don't have the motivation anymore. I used to be a strong believer in God, but now I really believe I have been abandoned and left to die. Why don't you try counseling? If only for a couple of sessions, just to see how it is   Also, why don't you try sitting your mum down and telling her how you feel, tell her why you feel that way, and that you want her help to make yourself better again. Never lose hope, there is ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel, however faint, I promise   -- Posted by guitargogo90 at 1:22 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 like i told someone the other day, pain is only temporary but death is forever. you may feel over whelmed and totally abandoned but things CAN get better. sometimes when you're dealing with depression it takes over and its all you can focus on, which is what i think is happening to you. Try doing things to take your mind off your own depression such as exercising, listening to music, reading happy books, etc. it may actually be difficult at first but it can help. believe me, i've been there -- Posted by Anonymous at 1:23 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from yellowsapphire at 1:20 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 9:16 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 I have no one to talk to this about, except my Grandma, who is pissing me off by offering "positive" solutions, and is telling me to see a counselor.    I will not see a counselor, because first and foremost, my depression is situational. I got depressed because of a specific reason. It has ruined my life.    I've been depressed for about four months now, and it's only getting worse, because my situation is not getting better, despite me trying my hardest. I don't think it will ever get better, and that I am doomed to a life of failure.    If things keep getting worse, I may actually kill myself. I'd never thought about it before, but I have no where else to put my emotions. I am going to explode.    I bring books to class to read now, so I don't start crying right then and there.    My mother, due to my depression, simply thinks I'm an asshole, because I've stopped doing chores,etc. and all I do is lay in my room.    So, she's taken all my privileges away from me, so now I have even MORE time to think about killing myself/depression/my problems.    I just don't have the motivation anymore.    I used to be a strong believer in God, but now I really believe I have been abandoned and left to die. Why don't you try counseling? If only for a couple of sessions, just to see how it is     Also, why don't you try sitting your mum down and telling her how you feel, tell her why you feel that way, and that you want her help to make yourself better again. Never lose hope, there is ALWAYS a light at the end of the tunnel, however faint, I promise   Well, I don't believe in counseling. As I kept trying to tell my grandmother, my depression is situational. I am not depressed for some abstract reason. Assuming my depression is not too far along, if my situation magically changed today, I'd be as happy as a bee. But I am not, because it continues to get worse, and I have lost all motivation. I cannot talk to my mother, and I have never been able to. She does not listen or respect my words/feelings. And there's nothing wrong with me. I didn't "catch" depression from the kid next door. I am in an extremely shitty situation that isn't changing. It's going to break me. -- Posted by tell me again at 1:24 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Counselling can help you deal better with "situational" things. Even if you don't seek counselling, please consider the possibility that even if "situations" don't get better, there are ways out -- Posted by tell me again at 1:26 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Nobody "catches" depression, OP. Even people without clear, awful problems often get depressed from a trigger of sorts. -- Posted by Aliboo at 1:27 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 You need to find the happiness inside yourself or you will never get better. -- Posted by WindChill at 1:30 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Do u think urself too good to ask for help? Certainly sounds like it. Do what the rest of us do and see a fucking shrink. -- Posted by Anonymous at 1:33 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from tell me again at 1:26 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Nobody "catches" depression, OP. Even people without clear, awful problems often get depressed from a trigger of sorts. Yes, I realize that no one catches depression. That was just wry humour, of mine. -- Posted by tell me again at 2:50 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:33 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Quote: from tell me again at 1:26 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 Nobody "catches" depression, OP. Even people without clear, awful problems often get depressed from a trigger of sorts. Yes, I realize that no one catches depression. That was just wry humour, of mine. I know, but you were still saying that only those who get depressed without bad situations can benefit from counselling. If the bad situation in your case really won't change, then the only way to get help is to find ways to deal with that and work around that. That might seem unthinkable right now, but that's what counselling is for. -- Posted by NikkiInkz at 2:52 pm on Dec. 7, 2008 You need to tell you mum how you feel. She'll understand, try to help, and if not counselling could become a fall back Message me if you wanna chat about it