-- Posted by Anonymous at 8:08 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 As wtih everything in my mind, im split between to major extremes.   To live? or to die? most of me wants to die, but just a little bit wants to get help, and move on with my life. Problem is that no matter what i do, no one belives me how serious i am about my depression and such. They think that just because my depression has only been really apparent for the last few months, its no big deal. I want so badly to prove them wrong. To overdoe, just one pill away from ending it all, and being saved, so that people see how I feel, and understand how bad it is. Is this horrible? p.s i wont do anything im just curious if the thought is unethical -- Posted by carracer at 8:09 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 Its pointless. Why prove them wrong by dying? Then everyone loses. -- Posted by jmh77 at 8:09 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 live plz -- Posted by Zetsuai at 8:09 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 You kill yourself, and you won't be around to enjoy the attention. I think maybe you should see a professional about this. -- Posted by TBMP at 8:10 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 I've actually thought this through a lot, via necessity, and I realized this- go get therepy, fuck it if other people dont believe you, a therepist is both paid and legally required to believe you. -- Posted by Violently Happy at 8:13 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 I used to think like that when I was younger when I would scream at my parents that I would kill myself. -- Posted by DarkSunshine at 8:20 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 see a doctore? It's not worth it in the end, what if something goes wrong? -- Posted by Anonymous at 8:33 pm on Dec. 9, 2008 I've been on all different meds for years. -- Posted by i love foamy at 4:12 am on Dec. 10, 2008 Obviously I'm not condoning it. But it is understandable. I know what you mean, i have had the same thoughts and feelings. People think now that just cause i got help and I've been acting "Happier" that I'm now fixed. When I'm so very far from it. I too want to do something dramatic to show them that i am still in pain. The only thing is if i did do something to show them i wouldn't stop there I'd actually kill myself. So yeah i get it. Maybe you should talk to someone? Your mum, dad, brother or sister...depending. What about friends? Is there a friend you could tell this to, someone to help you and support you?  Also it might be a good idea to talk to a councilor. Its great that you've got it off your chest, so to speak even if it's on LW. But i think you need someone a bit more real to talk to. Never the less if you feel you cant talk to them you can always PM me. Remember. Before  you think of doing something drastic always think of all possible outcomes. True you will have attention but it could have a serious toll on your health. And what about afterwards, people will always be watching your every move to make sure you don't do anything, which may not be such a bad thing but I'm sure that will get irritating very quickly. Depression and suicidal thoughts are not something to be taken lightly. There is no set time before you start to have suicidal thoughts or even attempt it. Thats why when going to the doctor one of the questions is if you have suicidal thoughts or feelings. That is one of the signs for depression not a developement. You need to explain this to those people who dont take it seriously.