-- Posted by Anonymous at 12:39 am on Dec. 13, 2008 I'm fairly certain that I am clinically depressed. No matter how many good things happen, I seem to always end up just lying alone in bed at night. I can't even cry, even though I really want to. I find myself so pathetic, but if someone asks me if I have depression I say 'Ah nah, not really. You know, I get a bit down sometimes, but you just gotta keep going and making the most of it' when really I know I am depressed. People call me an inspiration, and I feel sick inside, almost as if I am a fraud for faking such a positive outlook. I appear so positive outwardly, like I am wearing a mask. The only time I am truly myself is when I am alone. Has anyone else been through this? -- Posted by Catalyst11 at 12:41 am on Dec. 13, 2008 You're in Denial about it, and you don't want people to know you have it. I've been through it......I just acted positive until I felt positive....I am still surprised it worked, but just try to get help or help yourself about your depression -- Posted by W o n d e r l a n d at 12:42 am on Dec. 13, 2008 Many people with depression do this. I did it for years, usually because we dont want our lives to seem less then perfect, we want to appear strong and no one wants to admit (or sometimes accept) their weaknesses. Self protection -- Posted by maceyface at 1:17 am on Dec. 13, 2008 because its very unattractive in an individual.