-- Posted by Anonymous at 6:04 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 Today I came to terms with the very real idea of my death. I'm not ready to lose her. I can't. I'm not losing another person in my life I've cared about like this. I'm not. If she leaves my life, I will die. I'm going to make sure of it. I knew that when I first trusted her and fell in love but I did it anyways. If she leaves, she won't ever know, I'll just dissapear. My family doesn't even know, everytime I've hinted at killing myself they've taken it as a joke, just like everyone else they think I'm being dramatic. Think I'm being dramatic. Please do. -- Posted by weezybabyx7 at 6:05 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 usually if you tell people your going to kill yourself, you never do it. -- Posted by cherryD at 6:05 pm on Jan. 3, 2009  You really are.  Honey, if someone leaves your life, and you kill yourself, it would be a big blow to everyone. And you might make her guilty for the rest of her life. Do you really want that to happen? -- Posted by malignant melanoma at 6:05 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 Why would she leave your life? -- Posted by Anonymous at 6:06 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 Quote: from weezybabyx7 at 8:05 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 usually if you tell people your going to kill yourself, you never do it. This is a promise I've made to myself long ago. I'm praying someone will talk me out of it but I know they can't so in honesty this topic is pointless. -- Posted by lestat1990 at 6:06 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 life is only as good as you make it. u are a stupid fool for talking like that -- Posted by katherine20 at 6:08 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 If you wanna talk, pm me. -- Posted by piemaster at 6:13 pm on Jan. 3, 2009 By killing yourself you are doing a very selfish thing. She does still care about you, but maybe not how you want her too. If you do, then what will that accomplish? You will not be with her at all, and she will live with this for the rest of her life. You cannot force anyone to like you, they must do so by their own will. You will eventually find someone, and maybe there is still a chance you can be with her. Yet, you will never know if you kill yourself.