-- Posted by Anonymous at 7:58 pm on Jan. 6, 2009 Today seems to be even more shit than originally expected. I barely slept, I've been replaced, I've lost ambition for the sport I used to love. My friend is depressed and I can't help her, I just feel useless, like shit today. I want to scream, I want to cry, basically, I want to throw a mother fuckin' temper tantrum, but alas I cannot. I want to sleep a week away. I want to leave responsibilities behind, I'm sick of the facade, of the smile and nodding. I'm just sick of holding it all together for everyone, to be the shoulder to cry on. I'm sick of being the one everyone thinks is something, a faceless person. I just want to take off, right after high school, leave and go where no one knows me. Escape, but I can't, I've made too many promises, I'm in over my head. I know, this is life, suck it up and deal, but I'm just exhausted. I feel old, I look old, in some respect. (I seem to be rambling off topic more and more, aren't I?) I've dealt with too much shit, people who know what I've been threw look at me with sympathy. I don't want your fuckin' sympathy, I just want a damn thumbs up and to be on my way. I'm just sick and tired of everything. Stupid teen angst and its angsty-ness. /rant -- Posted by ChemicEmotions at 8:36 pm on Jan. 6, 2009 Yeah it happens babe -- Posted by LoveKay at 11:24 pm on Jan. 6, 2009 Well I hope by now you are feeling a bit better. But it's okay to vent, it always is. I think the biggest reason you feel the way you do is because you just hold everything in... or everything that needs to be put out there at least. You did say that you are tired of putting up a facade, putting up an act... that you're in reality just sad. Sometimes, I have felt like crying out to the whole entire world how I felt at the time, but felt so trapped and as if I couldn't speak a single word. Knowing that I had someone to talk to helped me feel alot better. I've written my feelings down, but it isn't quite the same as saying it out loud, as having someone on the receiving end. I'm sure you have a friend or a family member who would be more than willing to listen to you. If you don't think you do... well let me tell you, you do! You always do, you always have at least one person. I think all you really need to do is vent and rant and let it all out, and writing it on Livewire may be helpful but it isn't enough. Good luck.