-- Posted by heartless goddess at 8:18 am on Jan. 7, 2009 hi everybody... im not actually new here but i've been gone for such a long time because of some stuffs so the council deleted my account...and now i'm back...i hope some still remembers me... well... here's my story.... my bf and i were living together temporarily..we're one year and 15 days now..but there's still one thing that haven't changed in me...and i hated it...but i don't know how to deal with it each time im feeling it..that's JEALOUSY...i'm really not the jealous type before we met and i must say that to all that became my bf i haven't felt this except for him...you see? since the start of our relationship until now i still feel jealous to any girl that i know has the link to him...from his past to his present and to even to his future possible links..i can't call myself obssessed to him or paranoid by i guess that's what's portraying my character each time i got jealous...and im awareof it...i wanna control it...i don't want to make it obvious but i just can't help it.. do you know that feeling of different kind of pain when something runs through your head and you don't want to entertain it but the more you resist it the larger it becomes to your head and occupies all the space there??that stabbing pain in your inner chest when try to hold your tear and kep telling to yourself that its not true but you know its impossible and it might be true anytime??? i just thank god that it didn't cause us big fight now not like before... i want to control it..making myself looks like im okay to him..because he never got jealous to anyone else about me...i guess..or maybe he's just a great actor..??i don't know...sometimes i knew for sure that he really loves me but then when jealousy strikes in a second i forgot all that... -- Posted by Thejoeyc at 8:21 am on Jan. 7, 2009 ur pretty whack. -- Posted by kissmeintherain91 at 8:24 am on Jan. 7, 2009 Im a jealous person to but just think how you'd feel if he did that to you -- Posted by north star15 at 8:25 am on Jan. 7, 2009 boost you confidence. -- Posted by snowcone200 at 8:26 am on Jan. 7, 2009 Won't lie hard to know what your asking. But do you feel he is better then you in anyway? like looks? That could be the problem. -- Posted by InnocentTears at 8:26 am on Jan. 7, 2009 Don't worry i'm exactly the same if he's even talking to a girl i'm soo jealous and think loads of stuff in my head. Do you have any boy mates? That are just COMPLETELY mates. I just think well i'm always with one of my boy mates and i WOULD NEVER do anything with him. So i shouldn't get jealous of my bf -- Posted by heartless goddess at 8:31 am on Jan. 7, 2009 well..i can say we both have better looks.i mean he's handsome and i'm....pretty???---just a little bit..hehehe...