-- Posted by Natsy at 11:59 am on Jan. 8, 2009 my mum is taking it all out on me. i know she doesn't like me but she's usually civil at the very least so today she has been getting nastier and nastier all day about tiny little things; me not calling to end my contract, the fact that i slept til 12 (college was cancelled so it's not like i was bunking) and now she missed her stupid item on ebay and someone outbid her by like £1 and yep, you guessed it, it's my fault. because i was on the computer at the time. she started crying and screaming and calling every name under the fucking sun saying that i hate her and "do things just to spite her" my dad actually got his arse off the sofa to tell her to calm down; she WAS being pretty petty and ridiculous. now, the problem is that when people start shouting at me, i start laughing; a life long stupid reaction to serious situations. so i escape to the kitchen before she sees and the only way i can calm down is by hurting myself... so i scratched my back and at the time i didn't realise how hard i'd done it. now i've got raised marks all over it and i'm actually bleeding. fuck, it hurts so much i suppose this fucked up family has just gotten worse, in a way. she went to have a bath and "relax" a minute ago, which is why im on here... my dad sat down to help my brother with his homework... that's possibly the weirdest part of tonight... my dad has barely paid any attention to dave, especially since he was diagnosed with autism it's so fucking weird. any ideas how to make my back heal faster?     -- Posted by PrideAndJoy at 11:59 am on Jan. 8, 2009 Wow. Sucks to be you. -- Posted by starla91 at 12:03 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 you should keep it clean and try to make sure that junk doesn't get into it. And if you really would like it to heal fast you could go to your nearest pharmacy and ask them about otc creams and stuff that you could smear onto it -- Posted by LoveKay at 12:09 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Um, don't pick at it? Put ointment on it and scar treatment, -- Posted by Ghost X at 12:10 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 You can start by stopping. -- Posted by XCyanideXLipsX at 12:22 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Please don't hurt yourself hunni, it solves nothing, And I'm the same as you I laugh at my mum when she shouts, because of all the abuse she gives me, shes an alcoholic and it drives me insane... ='( She always take things out on me as well. I would suggest counselling but it might be past that point of repair... =/ And to heal your back I would suggest some body lotion and a nice long bath -- Posted by Zaciehkins at 12:24 pm on Jan. 8, 2009 Dude, your mum is a fucking bitch! Sorry, im passed being polite now, there is seriously no need for how the fuck she acts. She blames you for things that arent your fault and treats you like shit. Normally id be like "Ah, when your 18 you can move out and you wont need to worry about it" but nah, you shouldnt have to put up with her that long. Is there no where you could go? A relative's, is there like some place where you could go, like here we have a youth hospise where its only £100 a month but with benefits its only £5...not really sure why i sold that too you XD but erm, you get the idea :) *Huggles tightly* Im sorry if i didnt help much but if you ever want to talk about anything then im here for you just message me or text or whatever. Ly xxxx