-- Posted by Anonymous at 11:46 am on Jan. 10, 2009 i'm sorry for the informal typing but my keyboard is broken (the "i" and "n" keys are missing, so any capital i's or n's are spelling corrected.) I've been crying every night for the last five years. i feel constantly as if I've missed some enormous portion of my childhood and adolescence (although the latter isn't technically over.) I've reached out to everyone at this point, or at least everyone within my grasp. My parents, unfortunately are the type who make it a point to make our family seem flawless, but in reality they're abusive and they bicker constantly, with each other and me. They're sweet as can be to my siblings, though. My friends, the ones who get upset when i say they aren't my friends, couldn't possibly care less about me. i have one friend who cares, but she has so many other things to worry about and i won't force her to focus on me. People take advantage of the fact that i have no self esteem; they constantly belittle me. At this point, i want to die. I've wanted to die for a long, long time. I've started hyping myself up to any good thing that happens, no matter how small, but people mock me when I'm happy. no one ever calls, and no one really cares. So please, just have one nice conversation with me because i need it. -- Posted by ShellS at 11:48 am on Jan. 10, 2009 If you need someone to talk to you can PM me and i will listen to everything you have to say. i will help. :) -- Posted by Malachite Morning at 11:48 am on Jan. 10, 2009 I'm free. Leave me a message. =) -- Posted by Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life? -- Posted by Lord Cat at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Hey pm me ^^ anytime -- Posted by ShinodaFan at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Hey..Im Edina wats up? =) -- Posted by ird13 at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 I was going to PM you so we could have a private conversation, but you are Anonymous. PM, I would love to talk to you =) -- Posted by iloveNCIS08 at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 I'm sure life will look up soon, just try to be happy! -- Posted by melodramatic at 11:50 am on Jan. 10, 2009 I'm free, You can leave me a message :) -- Posted by Sheebobee at 11:51 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Pm me anytime I'll do my best to help or just listen :) -- Posted by Anonymous at 11:52 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life? To be spoken to, to help other people, to have people care for me. I'm not sure at this point. -- Posted by The Persuader at 11:53 am on Jan. 10, 2009 u can talk to me anytime -- Posted by Amin mele lle at 11:54 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:52 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life? To be spoken to, to help other people, to have people care for me. I'm not sure at this point. Well, have you tried expanding your social circle? Find friends from out of town, and start fresh with them. -- Posted by Anonymous at 11:57 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:54 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:52 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life?    To be spoken to, to help other people, to have people care for me. I'm not sure at this point. Well, have you tried expanding your social circle? Find friends from out of town, and start fresh with them. i have, They're all fully aware of it. They just choose to ignore me. But i always listen to them. -- Posted by My Dreams WILL Wait at 12:01 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Okay.. Relax...breathe...no crying please. I know how you feel..You should stand up for yourself, don't make others enjoy your pain. Before I say anything to help you..I have to ask you.. What happened exactly? Is it a trusting-regreting thing? You can pm if you want.. -- Posted by Taurian at 12:03 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Try joining a club so you can make some real friends. -- Posted by Amin mele lle at 12:03 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:57 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:54 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:52 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life?   To be spoken to, to help other people, to have people care for me. I'm not sure at this point.    Well, have you tried expanding your social circle? Find friends from out of town, and start fresh with them. i have, They're all fully aware of it. They just choose to ignore me. But i always listen to them. Sometimes when I have issues with my life and my friends don't help, I try to find new friends. I recently found new friends from out of town, and never told them my personal issues, so they don't judge me based on my past issues. Just an idea. -- Posted by Craziie at 12:11 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Hm.. Suicide is the easy way out.. Im sure your better then that. I know what you mean about family wanting to seem perfect.. i tihnk everyonesz that way tho.. If you wanna meet ppl, i duno maybe join a club of some sort.. a sport, YOGA? :) I felt this way before, and itsz no use feeling sorry for yourself ! I'm here to listen to whatever, so msg me :) <3 -- Posted by Anonymous at 12:18 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 12:03 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:57 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:54 am on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Anonymous at 1:52 pm on Jan. 10, 2009 Quote: from Amin mele lle at 11:49 am on Jan. 10, 2009 What do you want out of life?       To be spoken to, to help other people, to have people care for me. I'm not sure at this point.   Well, have you tried expanding your social circle? Find friends from out of town, and start fresh with them.    i have, They're all fully aware of it. They just choose to ignore me. But i always listen to them. Sometimes when I have issues with my life and my friends don't help, I try to find new friends. I recently found new friends from out of town, and never told them my personal issues, so they don't judge me based on my past issues. Just an idea. How would i meet them? i have out of town friends but i don't talk to them much because of contact issues