-- Posted by CocaColalicious at 10:53 am on Jan. 13, 2009 I cant even identify what i am feeling right now.Ugly and disgusting i guess , and well like a FAILURE.I want to call my bf and talk to him about this but i know he wont wanna hear it cause it will bring him down , i hate how i cant talk to my family about my issues cause they just DONT understnd and i have to call kids help phone before i call my bf , which is pathetic.I feel like cutting right now , ive been cutting since i was 13 and im 17 now.But i know if i do i will be adding fuel to the fire of the vicious circle i am going back into. I feel like a fake , i fucked up my sobriety yet  again and for nothing.I feel not good enough for my bf and like he diesnt even fucking care , he doesnt pay attention to me and dont care if he hurts my feelings , i honestly think hes just settleing for me and he doesnt even like me.I have degraded myself fo too long i just wish i could get out of this.Atm i dont know what the fuck to do plus im fuckin hung over which doesnt help... -- Posted by XCyanideXLipsX at 10:54 am on Jan. 13, 2009 FUCKING BREAK UP WITH HIM THEN!! -- Posted by IceTeaEdwin at 10:58 am on Jan. 13, 2009 Okai...well...you have to learn to control yourself before you can control other things...aaaaaaaand you can't control yourself until you decide to not give a crap about anybody else... It's kind of a re-born thing... -- Posted by CuntFace at 10:59 am on Jan. 13, 2009 Quote: from XCyanideXLipsX at 10:54 am on Jan. 13, 2009 FUCKING BREAK UP WITH HIM THEN!! this and i thought ATM meant somethig like automatic transactiion money or something -- Posted by eternalsunshine92 at 11:02 am on Jan. 13, 2009 if you're not happy with him, then you shouldn't be together. -- Posted by WindChill at 11:07 am on Jan. 13, 2009 If he doesn't care about u and ur feelings then, yes u should break up with him and find someone who does love and respect u for who u are. -- Posted by theirishbiatch at 11:11 am on Jan. 13, 2009 Awh, i know how you feel... U shouldn't settle for him, im sure you could do so much better and u deserve it...Try not to cut... its addictive... Try to think of yourself more positively.... ignore all the bad and just think of the good for the moment... -- Posted by Micus at 11:21 am on Jan. 13, 2009 Quote: from CuntFace at 1:59 pm on Jan. 13, 2009 Quote: from XCyanideXLipsX at 10:54 am on Jan. 13, 2009 FUCKING BREAK UP WITH HIM THEN!! this and i thought ATM meant somethig like automatic transactiion money or something also means at the moment. cocacolalicious, your boyfriend is supposed to be your emotional stronghold... if you can't depend on him to support you, why are you dating him in the first place?