-- Posted by My Little Pony at 8:08 pm on June 27, 2009 I am constantly disgusted with myself, and I've been really shy and whatever for my entire life. I make small advances but then fall on my face pretty rhythmically. Don't give me the whole work on your appearance do better in school lose weight etc thing, because I'm not paralyzed by my reflection in the mirror and I am attending an Ivy League school next fall. In terms of that kind of stuff, I feel pretty okay about myself. It's more that I just totally lack the ability to communicate in person. If I try talking to myself in a mirror the look in my eye disgusts me. I broke down at prom. I'm a mess. Then I go home and binge eat, and it's disgusting. Point of this post: I am willing to kill myself to solve this self-esteem problem that's been screwing me over since 1991. What can I do? Like spend a month in the woods alone? Isn't that supposed to drastically change your life? Go to a camp that's for troubled teens? Although I don't have a drug problem or anything. Do acting classes? Do drugs? I NEED CHANGE. -- Posted by AndreasMommy at 8:09 pm on June 27, 2009 How old are you? -- Posted by NightmareOzzie at 8:10 pm on June 27, 2009 you can only change urself, killings not gunna change anything. Pm me if u want to talk -- Posted by Rock Lobster at 8:10 pm on June 27, 2009 ok well, im telling you this right now. the places you go for troubled teens are going to be hell for you. I have been there, and mental hospitals. message me if you want any help. ive been there and done all that. -- Posted by lannie at 8:10 pm on June 27, 2009 do something about it. Talk to someone understanding. Counsellor?doctor?parents?friends?relatives?kidshelpline?lw? Try to change your lifestyle to make it better. If you can't do it alone, get someoen to help you -- Posted by My Little Pony at 8:11 pm on June 27, 2009 Quote: from AndreasMommy at 8:09 pm on June 27, 2009 How old are you? My birth year is right in the original post. -- Posted by My Little Pony at 8:17 pm on June 27, 2009 Ever since I can remember. It's not like I was a confident toddler, but lost it. Even when I was two, I was intensely shy... you can tell my looking through family photos. I'm either not in any of the family shots or I'm crying and screaming because I am in them. Edit: the post you quoted has been removed. -- Posted by My Little Pony at 8:20 pm on June 27, 2009 Quote: from lannie at 8:10 pm on June 27, 2009 do something about it. Talk to someone understanding. Counsellor?doctor?parents?friends?relatives?kidshelpline?lw? Try to change your lifestyle to make it better. If you can't do it alone, get someoen to help you I've been wasting away on LW on-and-off for two years. I think at one point it was hurting more than helping. Oh, LW. I've seen different psychologists since I was 8. I have good friends that I can talk to, but at the end of the day, how I feel about myself is extremely alienating. I feel so alone and trapped within my own body, as I have such trouble communicating how I feel, unless it is in writing. My lifestyle is healthy and "successful," aside from the overeating. But I don't gain weight, at least not yet. -- Posted by Skip at 6:56 pm on July 4, 2009 you should message me more you'd learn a lot -- Posted by blitzerdog at 7:49 pm on July 4, 2009 I'm doing an acting class for my self esteem problem -- Posted by My Little Pony at 8:57 pm on July 4, 2009 Quote: from blitzerdog at 7:49 pm on July 4, 2009 I'm doing an acting class for my self esteem problem How is that going? I tried that once and didn't make tons of progress, but maybe it was just a crappy class. It was more of a workshop without any real personal instruction.