-- Posted by xIsabellex at 4:59 am on June 29, 2009 Lately I gave up on life, lost all my faith in god, in my friends, in my family. I sulk around and don't talk to anyone, I want to be invisible. I haven;t eaten in 5 days now, and I love it. I can't stand to look in the mirror. The scales are my worst nightmare. My dreams are terrifying, filled with every single I fear most. Sometimes I wish i were dead, then I wouldn't have to feel anymore. -- Posted by divine judgement at 5:03 am on June 29, 2009 that sucks, but your the only one who can change yourself. -- Posted by amanda121996 at 5:05 am on June 29, 2009 u really need to eat -- Posted by xxfleurxx at 5:15 am on June 29, 2009   darling god isnt going to get you through this, so you can restore your faith in him when youre better. friends are possibly the best help you can get, in situations like this, excluding therapists and such, along with your family. Talking to someone about it will make you feel so much better, i can garentee that. You've gotta learn to trust people, or someone, if you ever want to change. No ones going to judge you.   write out your dreams when you wake up, and after a few weeks or days you might notice a pattern that might help with finding a solution. Breath. your beautiful. dont do this to yourself -- Posted by cash666 at 5:16 am on June 29, 2009 omg but food tastes soo nice :( -- Posted by Kaijuu at 2:49 pm on June 29, 2009 God isn't going to do anything the only one who can help you is YOU Now you can eat or a hospital will force you to you have to eat enough to stay out of the hospital go out and try to have some fun and if you don't like your size then exercise and dont eat much but eat something. -- Posted by Audioblood at 10:17 pm on June 29, 2009 Word. Definitely eat. From what I've heard (and figure), starvation is not pleasant. Never been that unfortunate. But whatever troubles you may be going through, you must realize that depriving yourself is not a solution. If anything, you should nourish yourself so that you can correct or at least over-come the problem. If you have weight issues, not eating is probably the worst thing you can do for yourself. Your muscles will eventually deteriorate and you can lose some functionality. Eat lightly, at least. Try some fruit or chicken or something. Eating breaded foods can make you feel physically "fat," so you might want to avoid large amounts of bread if eating makes you feel bad. On the flipside, saltine crackers are a good, light bread food. -- Posted by katlyndonni at 7:48 pm on July 1, 2009 eat something, you're going to pass out if you dont. i understand where you're coming from though. i just dont want you to get in too deep. change things for yourself. -- Posted by twisted angel at 4:50 pm on July 9, 2009 okay, not eating for 5 days is very very unhealthy, just have a balanced diet, i am sure that your very healthy and skinny. By doing this you are damaging your body, and don't loose faith in god and your friends, they are the ones that are always there for you. If any of my friends had an eating disorder, a couple do i would never turn my back on them. PM me if you ever need to talk, don't worry and try not to stress. If you dont want to have heaps of calories in your system, just eat fruit most of the time is just burns itsef off.