-- Posted by Anonymous at 3:07 pm on July 4, 2009 This might be long so bare with me. Ok so me and my gf have broken up because i was a cunt. i have been selfish and i completely deserved it. I need help on how to get her back. She doesnt tell me she loves me anymore but that is because she says she is numb from all the pain which is understandable and she also says that although she cant say it, in her heart she loves me and I just KNOW its true. I understand how she feels but I dont know how she can become 'not numb' like does it just take time or do i need to try and show her/remind her of how happy we were together. Im just confused because like 4 days after we broke up she was still saying 'i love you' and said if i showed her i truly cared she knows it would make her take me back, but we havent talked much on the phone since then and Im afraid that during this time she has been lonely and under the influence of her sadness and hurt that she has suggested never talking to each other because its for the better. I know i hurt her and i hate myself for it with a severe passion. Ive cried everyday for the last week and a half (we broke up around then) and I am so fucking miserable. EVERYTHING i look at reminds me of her and i start almost crying. I need her. Its true that you never know what you have untill youve lost it. She is such an amazing, kind, caring, loving girl i cant believe i hurt her. This has opened my eyes to what a cunt i have been to her and i have changed, and if thats not enough for her i am willing to change anything just to keep her in my arms. Im so fucking depressed I dont know what to do. She CURRENTLY lives on teh other side of the world and I want to visit her to spend time together because I KNOW that will make her realise that I have changed and remind her of teh good times we've had. Its just incredibly hard because my parents wont allow me to do this so ill have to sneak out of the houe which is not a very easy task to achieve. I dunno. I love this girl and we had such a good future ahead of us untill i went and ruined it. I need her back and I just dont know what to do. Please help me. Any help is appreciated because I honestly cannot live without my baby   -- Posted by Husk at 3:09 pm on July 4, 2009 Wat did u do to her? -- Posted by LiveForeverDieTonite at 3:10 pm on July 4, 2009 Aww, I'm sorry to hear :( Maybe you should tell her some of that? -- Posted by soccastud07 at 3:11 pm on July 4, 2009 find another girl bro -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:13 pm on July 4, 2009 Quote: from LiveForeverDieTonite at 3:10 pm on July 4, 2009 Aww, I'm sorry to hear :( Maybe you should tell her some of that? I do tell her but i can she what she means when she says she is numb. She is emotionless and doesnt react at all if i start crying on the phone. I dunno. i just wish she would look deep into her heart and realise that it was meant to be. We both know its true. -- Posted by Anonymous at 3:14 pm on July 4, 2009 Quote: from soccastud07 at 3:11 pm on July 4, 2009 find another girl bro Im not giving up. I dont remember life without her. She means so much to me yet i failed to show her that during our relationship because i was so blind to what i had - her endless love. Im such a belend