-- Posted by belizabeth at 5:20 pm on July 9, 2009 I wish I never existed. I hate putting my friends through all this pain that is going on with me. They really do not have a part in it but my mom is dragging them into it to hurt them and me. I hate her. Also now I just have no reason to live. I see the light but where does it lead to... I can not see that... I just guess I need to live and get through this. I know I am stronger than I think. I know I can make it. Nothing shall stop me. I just need to pray and God will do the rest. That's what I need to do I guess..... -- Posted by Dont Notice Me at 5:21 pm on July 9, 2009 yea -- Posted by belizabeth at 5:22 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from dont notice me at 5:21 pm on July 9, 2009 yea yep... -- Posted by Goddess of Judecca at 5:23 pm on July 9, 2009 God's not gonna do shit for you, nor will complaining about how horrible things are. So I don't wanna hear it. Fix things or stfu. ~Maggot -- Posted by devilmaycrydude at 5:26 pm on July 9, 2009 you need to do something by yourself, because if you always depend on god, and other people then not much will be done. you need to try and stop the pain being inflicted on family and friends, on your own, it will hurt and be hard, but you should do it that way, that is the right way. -- Posted by belizabeth at 5:26 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from Goddess of Judecca at 5:23 pm on July 9, 2009 God's not gonna do shit for you, nor will complaining about how horrible things are. So I don't wanna hear it. Fix things or stfu. ~Maggot ok... -- Posted by The Persuader at 5:32 pm on July 9, 2009 Just hang in there. In life we go through rough times and we always get through it. Just be positive. -- Posted by brittnutz at 5:34 pm on July 9, 2009 =( -- Posted by SimShrimp at 5:52 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from Goddess of Judecca at 7:23 pm on July 9, 2009 God's not gonna do shit for you, nor will complaining about how horrible things are. So I don't wanna hear it. Fix things or stfu. ~Maggot I apologize for her. I've found over the years that God can do a lot.  Don't lose that faith because of what a couple of ignorant people tell you.  Stay strong. -- Posted by belizabeth at 5:55 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from SimShrimp at 5:52 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from Goddess of Judecca at 7:23 pm on July 9, 2009 God's not gonna do shit for you, nor will complaining about how horrible things are. So I don't wanna hear it. Fix things or stfu.    ~Maggot I apologize for her. I've found over the years that God can do a lot. Don't lose that faith because of what a couple of ignorant people tell you. Stay strong. That's ok. I know that. -- Posted by KiteLaboratory at 6:07 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from belizabeth at 5:55 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from SimShrimp at 5:52 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from Goddess of Judecca at 7:23 pm on July 9, 2009 God's not gonna do shit for you, nor will complaining about how horrible things are. So I don't wanna hear it. Fix things or stfu.   ~Maggot    I apologize for her.    I've found over the years that God can do a lot.  Don't lose that faith because of what a couple of ignorant people tell you.  Stay strong. That's ok. I know that. "I just need to pray and God will do the rest" Thats silly all notions of the existence or non-existence of God aside. God is good to rest your head on, but God is not good to lean your whole body on because there is a substantial chance you'll just fall over. Which is to say whatever your problem may be it would be wise to actively attempt to either create a solution to it or alleviate the pressure it has on your psyche. God does not hold everyone's hand through everything to the extent that you pray and then leave it all up to him. Chris Gardner didn't just pray to God and hope he did the rest, he prayed to God and then did everything in his power to fix his problems himself and now hes a multi-millionaire rather than homeless with a young son. Assuming Chris Gardner is a religious man. Also if you want to start feeling better a good start is to stop wishing you didn't exist, stop blaming yourself for any pain your friends have in relation to you. If you're mom somehow went out of her way to hurt them then apologize, but if they stick around through it it's their choice to and you aren't putting them through it, thats a good thing. It's a very vague post though so I can't give to much advice. -- Posted by belizabeth at 6:09 pm on July 9, 2009 Okay.... -- Posted by Goddess of Judecca at 6:11 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from KiteLaboratory at 6:07 pm on July 9, 2009 "I just need to pray and God will do the rest" Thats silly all notions of the existence or non-existence of God aside.   God is good to rest your head on, but God is not good to lean your whole body on because there is a substantial chance you'll just fall over. Which is to say whatever your problem may be it would be wise to actively attempt to either create a solution to it or alleviate the pressure it has on your psyche. God does not hold everyone's hand through everything to the extent that you pray and then leave it all up to him. Chris Gardner didn't just pray to God and hope he did the rest, he prayed to God and then did everything in his power to fix his problems himself and now hes a multi-millionaire rather than homeless with a young son.   Assuming Chris Gardner is a religious man.   Also if you want to start feeling better a good start is to stop wishing you didn't exist, stop blaming yourself for any pain your friends have in relation to you. If you're mom somehow went out of her way to hurt them then apologize, but if they stick around through it it's their choice to and you aren't putting them through it, thats a good thing. It's a very vague post though so I can't give to much advice.   This is basically what I was attempting to say, but I was too lazy to put all that effort into it. Way to go. ~Maggot -- Posted by Forever Angel at 6:17 pm on July 9, 2009 Quote: from belizabeth at 7:20 pm on July 9, 2009 I wish I never existed. I hate putting my friends through all this pain that is going on with me. They really do not have a part in it but my mom is dragging them into it to hurt them and me. I hate her. Also now I just have no reason to live. I see the light but where does it lead to... I can not see that... I just guess I need to live and get through this. I know I am stronger than I think. I know I can make it. Nothing shall stop me. I just need to pray and God will do the rest. That's what I need to do I guess..... Except for your first few sentences, I think you have the right attitude. You can get through anything if you decide you can. -- Posted by theyareAs at 6:18 pm on July 9, 2009 Im gonna put this as kindly as i can, god cant help those who arnt willing to help themselves. Religion causes more problems than it solves, try finding other things or people to support you -- Posted by belizabeth at 6:20 pm on July 9, 2009 ok....