-- Posted by Anonymous at 8:22 pm on July 9, 2009 When do I get a turn to be happy? I try to help everyone with their problems, yet nobody listens to me, and I accept that. I try to be nice to everyone that I meet. I just try to be a halfway decent person. I just want one boyfriend that I can actually have a normal relationship with. I just want one boyfriend that I actually like, and don't just feel sorry for. I just want a boyfriend that I can be really happy with, and one that knows what he wants out of life. I know it's no use complaining, because that never fixes anything. I try to be paitent, I really do. Everytime I think I find a nice guy that I actually like, and could see myself with, I find out that he already has a girlfriend, or just got back with an ex-girlfriend. I just feel so alone. I just want someone to love me. I'm on the edge, once again. It hasn't even been 3 months, and I'm ready to go back to the fucking Psychiatric Center. I know I'm being over-dramatic. It would be a different story if things just weren't dangled in front of me, and as soon as I think I'm happy, they're taken away from me. I thought I was better, but maybe I was wrong. Maybe I shouldn't have come home. If this is the way that life is supposed to be, I don't want to be here. Either you're getting hurt, hurting someone else, or both. It's just wicked, and sick. I know I have to wait like everyone else to find 'true love', but maybe I don't want to. I just want to go away.