-- Posted by Areola at 12:49 pm on July 10, 2009 So on my way home from lunch today I was riding in the car, thinking. And I've realized that nothing means anything to me anymore. I don't mean I'm emotionless or that I'm numb, I'm not. I just mean there is nothing that actually impacts me. Things that would change people so drastically do nothing for me. I'm still the same. When I go back home this weekend there's a chance that I might be losing my virginity next week. For most this would be a major thing. For me, I can't even seem to care. It's as if it won't matter at all. I think I'll feel the same afterwards. Losing something that big should impact me quite a bit. I know it won't. My point here is, I want something to change. I want something huge to happen, to impact my life like nothing has done in so long. I want to feel the difference, but I don't think I can. Maybe part of me is numb and I just haven't noticed. -- Posted by metacarPi at 12:51 pm on July 10, 2009 Travel. -- Posted by JuiceStand at 12:52 pm on July 10, 2009 jump off a bridge into freezing cold water. -- Posted by Areola at 12:52 pm on July 10, 2009 Quote: from Metacarpi at 3:51 pm on July 10, 2009 Travel.   I'm 16, so that's out of the question for now. -- Posted by Areola at 12:53 pm on July 10, 2009 Quote: from JuiceStand at 3:52 pm on July 10, 2009 jump off a bridge into freezing cold water. Why don't you just jump off a bridge where there is no water?