-- Posted by ricerice at 10:18 am on June 23, 2006 For the longest time now, I have debating with my mind about whether I should end it all. Theres really isnt anything to keep me here. For the longest time I have been living to make other people happy. But Im sick of making other people happy while getting nothing in return. Every chance I take that can possibly make me happy only ends up in more misery. I want to live for my self, but everything i do proves to be in vain. Theres just nothing left to believe in, everything in this world seems to be made to be against me. Theres only one way to stop it and that is to disappear forever. -- Posted by katatthedisco at 10:22 am on June 23, 2006 please hang in there.  there is so much that u have to offer.do you take depression meds? i do and that might help you. pm me to talk anytime <3 kath -- Posted by shell at 10:22 am on June 23, 2006 you say everything you do proves to be in vain. well i say if anything stick around for that stick around to FACE that, prove that not everything CAN be in vain if you fight it. nothing is worth ending your life believe me iv considered it a number of times but i KNOW id never go through with it an would definately regret doing anything stupid. i dont believe everything in the world is against you but boy do i know how that feels, but you can rise above it think of one thing thats good in your life it might be something small like your bedroom but whos to say you cant stick around for that, or music even i chose my cousin. shes 12 - 3 years younger than me - but shes like my sister and if i go, it would affect her an im not prepared to break her heart. also i think of my rabbits because if i went they'd have no1 to look after them just think before you do anything stupid and if u wanna talk more then mail me. xxx -- Posted by RememberTheName at 10:23 am on June 23, 2006 Aw, I have felt like that before. PLEASE try your hardest to tough it out. You will find someone who will make you WANT to live, and who will make you happy in return. This sh-t will pass. As I always say, it just takes time. -- Posted by Britguyusa at 10:23 am on June 23, 2006 If you end it tho there is no way back. Ive been depressed at times after being teased and stuff but no matter what I wouldnt end it. Ashlee -- Posted by BornInWater at 10:23 am on June 23, 2006 Dont kill yourself or anything...you need to live! -- Posted by PinkyLaw at 10:32 am on June 23, 2006 You should stay in there to say to all the people and things that put you down Fuck you I did it. I stayed to make sure others were gonna be alrite.   One day you can say you'll know there is something to keep you here, and you just gotta wait for it to come and when it does dont look back. I know the feeling if you wanna chat anytime ye I'm here and happy to listen and at least try and help -- Posted by sluna85 at 2:42 pm on June 23, 2006 You say you want to do more for yourself, what would killing yourself do for you?  Do you know what lies ahead after death?  I sure don't.  What if it is nothing?  Then you would be gone, that would be it.  There would be no dreaming of flying through space, no watching your love ones get one with there lifes, that would be it.  You say everything keep's f-ing up for you, and I understand that, almost everyone here does.  You talk about doing for others, well dosn't that mean you have people you love that you do for?  Do you not have anyone who loves you back?  Maybe you just don't realise it.  The best advice I can give you is a quote, "For every mistake you make be gratful, for that mistake you'll never make again."  The fact that your talking to us means you have some doubt about killing yourself, so obviously killing yourself would be a mistake.  Thinks can get worse, but they can get better too. -- Posted by SuBmIsSiVeReALiTy at 6:04 pm on July 29, 2006 Trust me I know how that feels. As soon as I was 18 and able to do something for myself, I made the mistake of moving in with my boyfriend...then I moved 4 hours away with him...leaving all my friends and family behind. I wanted to be with him so I moved sicne he was. I have done nothing but try my hardest to make him happy, and my family is very unhappy with me moving away so I have to try to make them happy too. The thing is...I"M NOT HAPPY. I want to leave and go back home or go somewhere where I can do something for myself and be someone. I don;t have the heart to hurt him so I have been more worried about making him happy them myself. It's killing me, but that's how I've always been. When I get the nerve I'm going to be me and do what I want...and that's what you need to do. You'll eventually find a way to please yourself! -- Posted by Tera23 at 1:01 am on Aug. 4, 2006 I'm sorry to hear you feel like that. Your solution is a long-term solution, to a short problem. It fixes nothing. Trust me when I say- things will get better. I understand we all have our predicaments, but hey thats LIFE!  Why not try to focus more on what makes you happy? Do you have a parent or a guardian or someone you can trust to go to for your problems..just to talk through it. I find that has helped me out a lot in my own experiences. -- Posted by prettyangel at 6:23 am on Aug. 4, 2006 I also felt the same way before. Then later I realized that I was wrong. Maybe it's not just your time. You just have to be patient. Time will come and all your good deeds will be paid in no time. Be tough!