-- Posted by justanothershyguy at 7:09 pm on Oct. 18, 2006 I've always hated how I look act and the things I do but Ive never been able to change them no matter how hard I try. Today i found my prom video burried in a draw this war a year ago (i havnt changed much) as i watched this and watch myself i wouldnt let myself think it ws me i was watching and as i finaly let my self think and know it was me I started getting sick and panicy to the point i almost threw up. The girl i went with was just a friend and she always had a fake smile the whol time and i was always wicked sie but usualy at work i was never sie with he or ne one else that went with us through the movie i was and then i remebered i was sie that whole night. i want to change myself so much but i just seem to not be able to im in college now gonna be 19 soon and ive never had a GF or even kissed a girl b4 im a bit fay have 'bitch tits' (steroids from asthma) bad eyesight so i dont have a drivers permit or license nothing of that sort no job ATM and i getting low on funds and even lower on self confadence or w/e. I go to class never really talk to ne one becuase im afread to talk to new people and im wicked shy but yet if I work somewhere or in HS i was never shy in or out of class except with the ladies... well idk i guess i just had to post this becuase it seems so wrong that i would get that sick and scared watchin myself in my prom video. idk if i want advice someone to jsut comment idk.. thx -- Posted by izbeast at 7:11 pm on Oct. 18, 2006 hey dude!!! dont worry bout it!! you dont ALWAYZ need a relationship 100% of the time. yah it's a good thing to have but ya know what you dont really need it. be yourself and someone will like you for WHO you are not how you act or have changed! -- Posted by LittleOne90 at 11:36 pm on Oct. 18, 2006 i agree with izbeast you shouldn't change yourself to please other's be happy with who you are and love yourself i know it's hard -- Posted by justanothershyguy at 8:44 pm on Oct. 19, 2006 yeah its very hard becuase i want to feel as though im fitting in even though i know every other time im in a situation i end up fitting in just fine but idk its really wierd how fast your life can change after HS ends..